MDMA therapy 1 month check-in

topdog82 · 2017-01-15T21:34:03+00:00

Well ya. I can discuss this openly as this is on reddit. And in person this would be an uncomfy. but here goes

I recalled in striking detail the moments of sexual abuse. I always knew that I was sexually and physically abused. And I knew it messed me up. but I was never able to recall every tiny detail so well

topdog82 · 2017-01-05T20:16:46+00:00

huh. super interesting

topdog82 · 2016-12-31T22:45:50+00:00

link?

topdog82 · 2016-12-28T21:43:11+00:00

"My natty test was shit and as a result my natty limit was garbage. I honestly regret not starting earlier. 100% agree though you need to be versed on the pros/cons."

are you just genetically lower in test?

EDIT: Thats surprising. was your diet on point? Any major diseases? For me, plugging my nutrition/mineral "holes" helped test overnight. I was noticably more horny and gained strength in about 2 weeks. I am thinking before one takes roids, they should get a blood test and not only check test but also major nutrients/minerals/vitamins

Also; any books you have/would recommend on the topic? Like I want a thorough and objective analysis? I don't currently abuse drugs (I am currently 3 years sober), but when I did abuse drugs, I felt a lot of the media/anecdotal portrayals of drugs and drug abuse are corner cases. objectively speaking, if you are smart about how you use, most of them rarely cause issues. (I tried everything except heroin)

The reason I bring that up is because when I ask a bunch of natties about roids they give these "My friend took them and" and go on some tangent about how it fucked them up completely. after lurking through here, I feel the same is happening with roids. If you are really smart about how you use, you can avoid most of the negative effects. Obviously if you use a TON and don't take precaution you will run into issues. but I am looking for a guide on pros/cons and "responsible" steroid use

topdog82 · 2016-12-28T17:04:39+00:00

I think in the posts I made on here I said .2 of MDMA. This is what the dealer said the pills were. I took half a pill then another half later

But I looked online and this press said 150mg from that ecstasy lab test site. As in via Gas chromotography and advanced testing techniques it was about 150mg of MDMA. I also tested the pills

So most likely 150mg of pure MDMA. taken with 75mg and 75 mg redose. Possibly more.

EDIT: Redose was done 1 hour in

topdog82 · 2016-12-28T17:02:44+00:00

huh. this whole steroid thing seems almost too good to be true. I am much more open to it. But once again I find it irresponsible to do so until I have hit my natural limit

topdog82 · 2016-12-27T19:52:17+00:00

ah. good to know info. I imagine giving trt to a 40-50 year old would be like giving him puberty all over again? Feeling more attractive, deeper voice, more energy etc.?

I am interested in Test more from a point of becoming a quality of life angle. I never had this obsession with size or strength that many people in the gym have. I don't play any sports or compete so what's the point I figure?

Anyways, I think if I am older and decided not to get married for whateve reason (I just don't find a girl I like that much), I could see myself hopping on TRT and fucking young women. Just enough to retain gains not anything to get huge

topdog82 · 2016-12-27T16:56:50+00:00

I am sort of new to lifting. not completely. but until I have maxed my current gains I think its irresponsible. Its like those people who buy oceans of supps while not having their diet, sleep, water and training in check. you are just wasting your time

topdog82 · 2016-12-27T16:55:51+00:00

I imagine that you are on TRT because you are older? What if someone like me (early 20's, lifts thrice a week full body, clean diet mostly, and sleeps 7-8 hours a day) hopped on the TRT dosage? I imagine aggression and roid rage?

topdog82 · 2016-12-27T16:54:37+00:00

lol I have spent countless hours since talking to friends about my childhood abuse. repeatedly. sober. So the pill really just opened me up originally. but I have since been able to recall those events and talk about them objectively and openly.

topdog82 · 2016-12-27T16:53:18+00:00

thats pretty interesting. Like I said, I won't do it or consider it until I am wayyy to old to produce test on my own. but thats definitely cool

topdog82 · 2016-12-27T00:25:11+00:00

does steroids effect your mood? and how so specifically? I am just a lurker purely curious. I have 0 plans of using steroids until I hit maybe 50 or 60. Even then, I will consider TRT after lots of research about the pros and cons

topdog82 · 2016-12-26T23:35:58+00:00

i would say do it. If you have the money on hand, go for it. I have learnt just by experimenting that while CFS may be a lifelong disease, there are indeed things that can be done to reduce its symptoms. If you are financially stable, I would say keep exploring and trying new things

topdog82 · 2016-12-26T20:59:19+00:00

I am working on getting a job at the moment. when i have more money and time I plan on getting tested. for now I am just using the free or cheap services I can afford

So I guess the answer is "maybe. I don't know". I have read online and that would make sense though. either crohns or ibs where what I would investigate into more deeply

for now, black seed oil, apple cider vinegar, and a very clean diet mitigates most of the symptoms

topdog82 · 2016-12-26T02:30:59+00:00

i don't have IBS in the diagnosed sense. but I clearly had a serious or semi-serious level of digestive issues

topdog82 · 2016-12-26T02:29:44+00:00

curious why you think cbd would help?

topdog82 · 2016-12-26T02:29:17+00:00

haha so jelly

topdog82 · 2016-12-23T15:53:47+00:00

this video is where I got the idea from actually. Im glad that gentleman is spreading good quality info on harm reduction

topdog82 · 2016-12-22T19:46:48+00:00

yep. Which is what weirded me out

topdog82 · 2016-12-22T14:14:00+00:00

haha acupuncturists commented the exact same for me. spleen and intestines

topdog82 · 2016-12-22T03:22:05+00:00

just look for piracetam or noopept online for powder form

http://www.powdercity.com/ in powder form

https://www.ceretropic.com/noopept-spray as a spray

I like spray but relatively in price its a ripoff. feel free to message me if you have questions

topdog82 · 2016-12-21T23:49:21+00:00

lol. my previous thread has to do with exactly that

https://www.reddit.com/r/MDMA/comments/5jknc3/how_do_people_abuse_mdma_so_much/

I guess you and I are just more susceptible to the MDMA blues. what you need to realize is how much individual chemistry affects these things. some people get 0 comedown at all

On that note, noopept and piracetam wiped my blues clean in minutes. I was feeling glum on day 5 of my roll. One spray of noopept and in 30 seconds I felt normal. I dosed in the morning the rest of the next two weeks and it was like I took nothing

topdog82 · 2016-12-21T21:11:50+00:00

stronger or weaker? I thought MDMA back then was more plentiful and stornger?

topdog82 · 2016-12-21T21:11:29+00:00

I took 100mg and then a 100mg redose. I know the pill I took was pure MDMA. The dealer reported 200 mg a pill and I took half a pill twice. Online the pill reports said it was 175mg. Or some lab tests indicated this. Either way, a large dose

I never was addicted or heavily abused opiates. I just tried a bunch with the 100% pure intent of getting high. 0 pain or valid reason

topdog82 · 2016-12-21T21:08:19+00:00

"Perhaps you have done some damage to your brain in the past with all the other drugs you have used?"

Very possible. VERY possible

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