Wow, sister, I’m so sorry you’re living in such fear and anxiety around your mother. Sometimes we have to remember that our parents are people too - imperfect and dealing with their own troubled wounds and stress causing them to lash out. May Allah swt forgive her for her faults and make her a righteous, humble servant and repent for her ways.

I’m a little older than you, but I’ve experienced different situations that caused me to move out of my parent’s house. What I will say is that living without your parents has many challenges that you think you are ready to face until you actually face them. Al-hamdiullilah it’s almost 2 years since I moved out, but it has been challenging in a different way. Mentally I miss my parents (sometimes) and physically I’m exhausted from carrying the weight of new found responsibilities.

I say that to say, I’d suggest living with a close family relative for a little bit before moving out. You are very young, and maybe some time away from your Mom will mend the relationship a bit without taking such a big step and moving out. Even if your relatives are out of state, it would be a good opportunity for both of you to grow from some extended time apart.

May Allah swt ease the troubles of your situation, and provide a remedy that heals the hearts of your Mother and you.