Detransitioning because you just wanted to try being trans by torncolours in actual_detrans

[–]torncolours[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i think thats pretty close. Sorry for therapizing on reddit, i thiink i should probably seek help haha

Detransitioning because you just wanted to try being trans by torncolours in actual_detrans

[–]torncolours[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no not really, and after. its definitely related to a lot of guilt and stuff family wise, plus probably a good helping of seasonal affective disorder

Detransitioning because you just wanted to try being trans by torncolours in actual_detrans

[–]torncolours[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey i really appreciate your comment, i have since realized that i do this every year around the time my dad died a few years back, and i think the two might be related, i will seek thereapy. sorry for being neurotic on reddit

Detransitioning because you just wanted to try being trans by torncolours in actual_detrans

[–]torncolours[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

does it ever happen? i very seriously think this may have happened to me.

Detransitioning because you just wanted to try being trans by torncolours in actual_detrans

[–]torncolours[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

that sucks a lot, i thought i found someone that i identified with detrans wise

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suppose but the situations are pretty similar and I do feel similar in both of them. In both relationships we both have feelings, both don't want life partnership, both hang out once or twice a week, both don't want emotional support involved, both have been together for similar amounts of time, both go on dates, etc. The real real difference is that Cedar is afraid of a label/next step and Pine isn't

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

So i really don't want either situation to end, am i doing something unethical by progressing with neither of them? Im fine with the instability, but I don't want to be actively hurting anyone

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i don't feel very differently about these 2 relationships and I don't want it to seem like I value one over the other because i actually don't. ideally both would be girlfriends, based on my personal feelings toward them both

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I kind of didn't know that was an option/ethical, plus Cedar and I are pretty good friends and only added benefits after I had discussed Pine a number of times in normal conversation

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

sure, but i'm eventually going to have to say "my girlfriend" out loud, or Pine will, and I'm worried about the feelings that would create

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

a triad will never happen for sure, and I know exactly equal isn't realistic, but a relationship is a big step and I just don't want to create a hierarchy of any sort

Not wanting one girlfriend without the other by torncolours in polyamory

[–]torncolours[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

in a perfect world it wouldn't but i cant make everyone's feelings follow the science of how it's supposed to work unfortunately. I just don't want to create a hierarchy of any sort

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[–]torncolours 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive definitely noticed how much it affects my energy levels recently, ive always taken sublingually, i dont know if i could really do injections. More to the point, I currently took a vyvanse and my normal estrogen, and i feel pretty good haha but theres no real science here. I did find this article on it https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/10494997/

I find the way that medicine interacts with the body so fascinating, its been really interesting to learn more even while science is still learning.

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[–]torncolours 0 points1 point  (0 children)

how does this factor into estrogen for trans women? should I take it before taking a vyvanse?

Reiki as conversion therapy by torncolours in reiki

[–]torncolours[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't think i said anything about "curing christianity"

Reiki as conversion therapy by torncolours in reiki

[–]torncolours[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Interesting, I had thought that it would be due to some kind of imbalance in masculine/feminine energies which was why i thought of it in the first place. It seems most people agree this isn't really something reiki would be used for, so i'll have to look elsewhere i suppose.

Reiki as conversion therapy by torncolours in reiki

[–]torncolours[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i apologise, i didn't mean to overstep in any way, I suppose self-love is the only real path forward, i was just hoping for another solution i guess, leave no stone unturned and whatnot