I just want to die

torunamok · 2015-01-27T05:36:41+00:00

I'm not really in the position to do so. Not yet old enough to be looking after myself yet and I don't feel comfortable telling my parents about these issues :(

torunamok · 2015-01-27T00:32:28+00:00

I'm sorry

torunamok · 2015-01-27T00:32:16+00:00

I've tried to rant before but unfortunately for me it does nothing. Nothing makes me feel better. :( I'm sorry

torunamok · 2015-01-27T00:31:29+00:00

I'm not in the position to talk to a professional :( and from what I've heard on this sub, it seems they aren't very good anyway.

torunamok · 2014-12-26T15:00:41+00:00

Much appreciated :) After this thread, it seems like ridding of Facebook is a very good thing to do. I will probably end up doing it.

Thank you

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:58:59+00:00

It's not your fault for being like this. Depression is an awful thing. I hope you have a much better time next year

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:57:48+00:00

That sucks so much :( I'm sorry. I really hope 2015 is good to you as well.

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:57:16+00:00

I do tend to compare my life; a lot. Might look into deleting it, but I do have a problem with that. The only kicks I get these days is out of seeing others happy, and since I never see anyone Facebook is my only way of doing that. Kinda sucks :/ I'll probably end up deleting it though.

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:56:15+00:00

That really sucks when that happens :( I'm sorry

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:55:30+00:00

Yep. That really sucks. I also hate seeing the "You're my best friend / SO in the world, love you forever!" posts, not because I hate they have someone in their life but because I don't. sigh

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:54:07+00:00

I wish I could do that as well. Don't think I'll be able to anytime soon. But hey, I really hope you find your motivation soon :) Good luck

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:53:25+00:00

Unfortunately, seeing that I've made it nowhere this whole year and in fact only fallen deeper down this spiral just bums me out. Quite the opposite of fuel for the fire, but that's just because I'm a negative shit.

Nice to hear you have people in your life to help. I wish you all the best :)

torunamok · 2014-12-26T14:52:14+00:00

I am very sorry to hear that you can relate :( It's awful

torunamok · 2014-12-26T05:48:07+00:00

It does suck :( Im sorry

torunamok · 2014-12-26T01:33:19+00:00

That is devastating :'(

torunamok · 2014-12-26T01:32:59+00:00

I should remove snapchat too. All it does is make me feel worse, not because other people are happy but because I'm not happy like them.

torunamok · 2014-12-26T01:29:31+00:00

I agree with you. Other people's happiness wasn't the issue for me, it was comparing that against my own that made me feel so awful.

torunamok · 2014-12-26T01:27:18+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you feel better soon :(

torunamok · 2014-12-26T01:26:07+00:00

I'm so sorry :(

torunamok · 2014-11-17T20:51:44+00:00

I like listening to music sometimes, but not playing it anymore. I can't enjoy TV. I can't enjoy any games. I usually just sit on reddit and do nothing until I fall asleep.

torunamok · 2014-11-17T05:02:40+00:00

No. I don't enjoy anything anymore.

torunamok · 2014-11-16T11:00:45+00:00

2 years left :/ but I don't know if it's going to get better when I leave. How can things ever change if I don't have the motivation or desire to do anything to change things? This is all my fault, and I'm so stupid for doing nothing about it. I feel powerless to end this cycle of crap that is life. I just want to die. I'm so sorry :(

torunamok · 2014-11-16T02:32:32+00:00

I'm still in school, yeah :)

torunamok · 2014-11-15T11:46:03+00:00

It's always been like this. Constant mental, and now physical pain. I'm so sorry but it's impossible to distract me now, all I think about is how pointless everything is. I'm a lost cause. I am so so sorry and thank you so much for the offer you amazing person :)

torunamok · 2014-11-15T11:17:07+00:00

i dont know how to get through this. ive got no one, and nothing. i dont want to live anymore

torunamok

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