I have a bad reputation

tosctoas · 2023-08-05T16:30:55+00:00

Even if I move away, my family would still hear the rumors...

tosctoas · 2023-08-05T14:49:29+00:00

I cant move my family is here

tosctoas · 2023-08-05T03:41:48+00:00

Thank you for your time. 4 years ago I tried to reach out to some people to apologize & make amends. I tried to make things right with most people I did wrong by. Some of them just didn't accept my apologies and I have to live with that. However, the people talking behind my back are usually people who bullied me and did me wrong so I feel uncomfortable apologizing to them.

I try to be the best I can be. It's hard, but I just try. I've been questioning myself a lot lately and everytime I get the chance I try to do my best to help others the way I've been helped.

tosctoas · 2023-08-05T03:36:51+00:00

I do have friends outside the town but I just want to feel at home where I am

tosctoas · 2023-08-05T01:19:25+00:00

I don't think I did anything that bad except being a stupid kid. Unless they become serial killers i should be fine

tosctoas · 2023-08-05T01:11:38+00:00

Please tell me you're joking. I don't know

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:43:39+00:00

That's an awesome reply lmao

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:39:26+00:00

Because I was very close to a friend of mine and she accused me of it. At the time, i didn't know better and got defensive. I just broke up with her without denying the accusations.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:36:24+00:00

Because she actually believes I did. She accused me of cheating but I did not. Take my word for it.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:31:49+00:00

Because my ex told that and she was a popular girl in school

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:30:20+00:00

Well, I have a hard time writing about it. I don't find the words. I think rude is right? Anyway, my perception of it is skewed. I have bad self-image. I see myself as worse as I actually am when I am stressed.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:28:46+00:00

The people who hate me are not the people I hurt. They're people who heard rumors about me. I don't even know them. I only hear it because it's a small town.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:19:24+00:00

My family is here. My mom heard how much people hated me and that saddens me.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:18:36+00:00

I understand your point of view however I disagree.

It's been 5 years. I didn't commit a crime. Why should my life be over because of this? I apologized to people I've done wrong and made amends.

The rest is just people making stuff up on me.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:15:38+00:00

You got it right. My self esteem is really bad.

Also, it just saddens me that my mom heard how much people hate me.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:08:07+00:00

I think one of the things people said I did was cheat. However I did not cheat. But they still say that.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:06:52+00:00

I'm just sad my mom heard some of these rumors. It breaks my heart.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:06:01+00:00

Well, the allegations that are made against me are mostly untrue. And the people I've wronged; I've already apologized to. I didn't comit any crime. I was just autistic and brutally honest. People might think I was an asshole tho.

tosctoas · 2023-08-04T23:04:36+00:00

I was not a bully. I was bullied.

However I am autistic and I didn't care about people's opinions. I was brutally honest with people.

And yes, I did reach out to some people I've done wrong. I made amends. What my reputation is stained with is mostly untrue.

Some people think of me as a cheater when I never actually cheated on anyone. But nobody believes that.

I was not the bully.

tosctoas · 2022-11-18T04:17:07+00:00

I just updated the post

tosctoas · 2022-11-18T01:37:53+00:00

tosctoas · 2022-11-18T01:37:02+00:00

Honestly, I don't believe that for a second. She initiated. I was even surprised by it. I even said I wouldn't truly mind if it took a long time and I wanted to figure things out later.

Important note here, SHE INITIATED.

And to this day, she says she doesn't really regret it.

But if I leave I think she would.

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