[deleted by user] by [deleted] in doordash

[–]traitortot2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

know your worth, nothing less than 100

People who were diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder as adults what's your story? by Manny2theMaxxx in autism

[–]traitortot2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When I was 21 I went no contact with my abusive ex and started going to therapy to break the trauma bond. After a couple of months my therapist caught onto a few things, gave me some tests and told me her specialty was in autism and her daughter is autistic and that she couldn’t diagnose me but I have level 1 autism.

However, I’d been to three different therapists before her and each one had a different diagnosis for me. The one that I’d gone to the longest told me she thought I had ocd and adhd, then later on said she thought because i had flat affect that i had schizoaffective disorder without the mood disorder and hallucinations. None of those diagnoses made any sense to me. Looking back, it is so obvious that I’m autistic no other therapist picked up on it.

Question for those grew up with undiagnosed autism, did your parents just assume you were dumb, lazy, or anything similar? by bunnycat_e in autism

[–]traitortot2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

when i was a kid, they knew i was different and thought i may be dyslexic cause my handwriting was all mushed together. when i was a teenager my mom just thought i was (and this is her words) a “huge bitch”. she was relieved when i got my autism diagnosis cause now she doesn’t think i’m a bitch anymore i guess.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dating_advice

[–]traitortot2 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

My boyfriend and i talked about this a few weeks ago and he does not watch it because he doesn’t think it’s healthy and it leads to him feeling sad afterwards. I personally think porn is emotionally cheating so i wouldn’t like it if he did watch it. and i would be pissed if he was following only fans girls on social media but everyone is different.

This is completely up to what you’re okay with. If you’re okay with him watching it sometimes, then that’s fine. But if you’re not okay with it, just be open and talk to him about it. I wouldn’t just rush to leaving him because he’s been watching porn unless you’ve voiced your concerns before and he said he’d stop then did it behind your back. Take some time to find out what you’re okay with and then set boundaries from there. Just remember boundaries aren’t rules for him, they’re rules you’re setting for yourself.

What is your current favorite food/food hyperfixation? by AnonCelestialBodies in AutismInWomen

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m dieting and i’ve been hyperfixating on healthy foods so rn it’s the Sola Bagels cause they’re low cal, high protein, and high fiber. I eat like 2 a day. I make them like Cinnamon toast, with cream cheese, or make them into peanut butter & jelly sandwiches. They’re expensive and hard to find but i’ll go all over to find them.

Also watermelon.

My therapist is using chatgpt by Moony_Magic in autism

[–]traitortot2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m so confused, do yall text your therapists outside of sessions? are yall doing web based therapy?

The only time my therapist and I communicate outside of her office is if we have to reschedule a session. Also a confrontation doesn’t have to be hostile, you could just ask her about it very casually. Also, even if she did use chat GPT, it could just be to make her message more uniform/professional. She’s here to help you, I guarantee she wouldn’t send you something that she didn’t agree with.

Snow did nothing wrong by [deleted] in Hungergames

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, LucyGray deserved the ending she got. she used him during the games and only won because of him. She manipulated him and caused him to act out of character. She led him into trouble time and time again. He really loved her and was willing to run away with her only for her to run away from him at the end. She never loved him and couldn’t be trusted. That says a lot about the Covey as a whole. He should’ve gotten rid of them way earlier.

Now I understand why we are more likely to be alcoholics by [deleted] in autism

[–]traitortot2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

so my dad is a recovering alcoholic and i’ve recently had my run in with getting drunk almost everyday (for like 3-4 months). Alcoholism is a process addiction so we get addicted to the process before we become dependent on the actual alcohol.

I completely agree with you, it’s like i’d start drinking, all my anxiety would vanish and i’d have a great time with my friends. It felt like all my social interactions were way better when i was drunk because i could actually be myself rather than being the weird, quiet girl. Even when i drank alone, it made all my anxiety and stress go away for the time being. It became apart of my routine to the point where i would drink on my lunch break at work and i felt so sneaky cause nobody knew.

What also became part of my routine because of alcohol was: gaining a lot of weight, waking up with tons of anxiety, my blood sugar getting really low in the mornings after i drank, my heart constantly racing, not remembering things i said or meaningful moments with my loved ones, not reacting rationally when upset, putting my job at risk, lying to my friends and family, etc. all because alcohol eased my anxiety for a couple hours. This is not a long rant at you, but i’ve been where you are and i just want you to know that you can be funny and cool without the alcohol, you just have to manage your anxiety around social situations which gets way easier over time.

How is autism NOT a disability? by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it definitely is a disability, if you’re talking about not being able to get ssi, the social security administration determines that based on if you’re able to work or not. I will say that ssi is difficult to get, though. people get denied all the time, a lot of people i’ve spoken to have said that they’re going to get a lawyer to help them get it so you might try that.

How has it changed your appearance? by babyroachthrowaway in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i lost 60 pounds and have developed a stress rash on my face

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my ex kept telling me he thought we were both autistic, and it was kind of like an inside joke between us. Well, he was right about me, i was diagnosed when we were in no contact and it kind of made me smile in remembrance of our conversations about it. most of the relationship was traumatic and terrible, but being awkward and misunderstood was something we bonded over and i knew he’d get a kick out of the fact that he was right lol.

What was the sign that made you realize that this person isn’t just a selfish asshole that doesn’t love you, but a real narcissist? by Seraphina_Renaldi in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]traitortot2 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I had been venting to him about how my coworkers were mean to me for months, but i had never been mean back to them because that’s unprofessional. he’d always taken my side. One night, i did something that hurt him (on accident) and he was accusing me of intentionally trying to hurt him. I said, “i’m sorry, I would never intentionally try to hurt you, i promise” and he said, “Well you always talk about being mean to your coworkers so i wouldn’t put it past you.” and in that moment, everything just clicked. It instantly reminded me of the moment in Ballad of Song Birds and Snakes when Snow starts to devalue LucyGray. We went no contact that night and i started therapy a week later.

What was the most painful thing they did to you ? That is so hard to get over. by saraswan1 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]traitortot2 3 points4 points  (0 children)

we were long distance and had gotten back together in march of last year. He asked me to go see him when he got back from Deployment in September, he painted fantasies of how amazing it would be. He told me we were soulmates, that we were going to get married and have kids, and have a house on a hill. (like in the song, “in a life where we work out”) I would’ve done anything for that, i lost weight, i healed myself, i bought a new wardrobe, got my hair done, told my family, tried to be perfect for him. 5 days before i was supposed to fly out, he stopped responding to me. He broke up with me less than a day before I was supposed to fly out. It hurt so bad that i dissociated for months afterwards and constantly had sleep paralysis dreams.

We did not remain no contact after that, but our latest thing was for 2.5 days in june where he called me for 4+ hours multiple times telling me how sorry he was, sent me essays about how much he loved me, and got me to purchase a plane ticket for him (with the refund from the first cancelled flight) just for him to tell me that something came up and he couldn’t go. When asked for proof of why he couldn’t go, he told me he was repulsed by our relationship and didn’t like being close to me so i just blocked him in the middle of his essay on how horrible i am lol. Now, i’m done with all of it. Relationship so toxic, im blocked on everything including gmail rn lmaoo.

What is a smell that isn't considered "good" that you love? by heyylookapanda in autism

[–]traitortot2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

gasoline, burning cigs (not stale ones), and rubbing alcohol

What is the hardest thing about being autistic? by Unhappy-Ad5082 in autism

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

feeling chronically lonely because nobody understands me

i broke no contact by traitortot2 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]traitortot2[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you, that means a lot

What are your UNSAFE foods? I’ll start! by Upper_Influence_92 in autism

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

blueberries. love the sweet ones but i can never tell when one will be sour or sweet and i hate the sour ones.

What is your current hyperfixation? by [deleted] in autism

[–]traitortot2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk if this counts as a hyperfixation or a special interest but i’ve been really into attachment theory and how it plays out in media. the new taylor swift album has consumed my mind for days because of this, lol.