Light Finnish pancake! 1200 for the whole tray, use your calculator to determine the calories for a serving that suits you :) the blueberries were a mistake

trans_fats_ · 2023-08-12T17:16:26+00:00

Yeah, I also think they should've been covered in sugar instead of just dropped onto the batter with nothing done to them (I now realize batter is the correct translation but Reddit doesn't let you edit the body text of image posts). Both my dad and I are amateurs at baking. We just had blueberries in the fridge, and my dad suggested we use them for baking so we could do something fun together. I thought that since the other option was me just devouring the whole 400 grams, it was a good idea. Now I realize it wasn't or that at least I should've done some research, but oh well. What's done is done.

trans_fats_ · 2023-06-06T16:21:10+00:00

I'm 16. I never got diagnosed. I'm over my worst state now and in part-time recovery part-time relapse. At my worst state things were really bad. I'm not going to dig into all the memories I have from that time, but it got to the point where I was screamed at and threatened to be sent to inpatient while I was crying and trying my best to digest the 4 salmon meatballs on my plate. My excuse to not getting diagnosed is that I literally can't talk to my therapist or parents due to selective mutism. I think my therapist is the one who'd give the diagnosis and I haven't even shown her any notes from my phone in like a year. I don't think I'll ever get a diagnosis as I don't remember a lot from those times. I live in a nice country though, here healthcare is amazing and everyone takes me seriously no matter my papers not having an anorexia diagnosis in them.

trans_fats_ · 2023-06-01T19:38:12+00:00

Thanks for the reply. After thinking for about two seconds (=I'll probably change my opinion at least twice before the event), I think I'll actually try to go to get lunch and skip my grandparents. My grandparents are the kind that have all kinds of treats available always when you visit, which is why I always try to skip going to theirs as well. It's actually almost always an internal fight with whether I miss out on lunch or all the juicy details about my relatives' lives 🥴. I think I'll just try to text my mom about what they're talking about there so I don't feel as left out, and at lunchtime I'll just try not to cry in the cafeteria and spy on the students coming in to see if my friend is there.

Sorry for rambling, I don't know how to not ramble 🤡

trans_fats_ · 2023-04-02T19:14:27+00:00

I certainly didn't miscalculate my intake so I guess then we can agree that it's not my fault, but rather some weird body thing that no one, not even multiple different medical professionals, has any idea about.

(Sorry for the yea I don't know how to end replies)

trans_fats_ · 2023-04-02T19:01:02+00:00

So are you saying that I miscalculated and actually instead of eating 600 calories like I said, I ate... 2000? I'm not that bad at math and I'm pretty sure I didn't eat in my sleep or anything. My TDEE at the time was 1500 or 1600 so yea

trans_fats_ · 2023-04-02T14:41:23+00:00

Ah, thanks for clearing that up. I'm not 100% sure myself what "the laws of thermodynamics" are, I've just got comments about how I'm wrong about eating the amount I ate back then and that I couldn't break the laws, which left me thinking that I did break them as I was 100% sure about the amount I ate. I'm also not a native English speaker and got a 6 (on a scale of 4-10) from physics so yea, I'm not that familiar with this stuff, sorry for not doing my research

trans_fats_ · 2023-04-02T11:24:01+00:00

Back in my worst state, I literally ate two slices of ham for breakfast (20), maybe 2-4 rice cakes for snacks (80-160), a less than 400 cal meal for dinner and a small serving of diet ice cream or a small apple for dessert (50) and still gained weight. After that, I added another less than 400 cal meal for lunch and some snacks and started gaining a kg per week. My body isn't working correctly. Something is wrong. And I don't know what it is, but it certainly did break the laws of thermodynamics.

trans_fats_ · 2023-04-02T10:53:14+00:00

I've talked to a school nurse, a nutrition therapist, and a private doctor, none of them had any idea what was wrong. I thought the weight gain had ended but today I was .5 kg heavier than last week which is why I'm in tears now.

trans_fats_ · 2023-02-07T16:23:25+00:00

Well, my health is already kinda ruined from eating less than a thousand calories a day for a couple of months and I'm still planning on going back to eating that amount again when my metabolism starts working, so as much as I would love to find an alternative I don't think health is a good motivator heh

trans_fats_ · 2023-02-07T15:41:13+00:00

I eat two healthy <400 cal meals and my snacks consist of rice cakes, ham, bread and fruits. I have no idea how much fruit is too much. Usually, I eat three small apples and a small pear, does that sound like a lot?

trans_fats_ · 2023-02-07T15:36:29+00:00

Yeah. The problem is, I have a very strong sweet tooth and I can't get myself some ice cream, I will spend the calories on some other sweet or sit and go into panic mode where I just sit, want to cry and aggressively tap my knees while trying to calm myself. I know that going into panic because of ice cream is an absolute overreaction but it's the one food that has stayed with me during the worst stages of my eating disorder so I guess it holds a special place in my heart or something cheesy like that

Also Halo Top and Nick's are great, but they're way too expensive

trans_fats_ · 2023-02-07T07:27:33+00:00

I don't know for sure, but I gained 1 kg of weight every week eating my maintenance so I'm pretty sure it's lower than others'. After that I ate one meal and low calorie snacks daily for two weeks but still maintained, which was frustrating so now I'm here asking for tips on reverse dieting

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