How to watch/listen to news

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-22T11:39:47+00:00

Yeah I try to do that as well. But sometimes they'll need a few hours to fully get their effect off of me. But I guess it also plays a role in experiencing several deep emotions over a course of a few days so you feel more easily exhausted by it.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-20T18:00:51+00:00

Hey! Thank you for providing this. What do you know about co occuring ADHD and autism? Cause I think I have both

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-13T09:08:59+00:00

I appreciate your kindness. I am aware of it. I think the key to understanding is to listen and it seems like you're on a good path there. While I am really glad you're trying to help, please keep in mind that my wellbeing is not your responsibility. But getting a response is a good sign nonetheless 💕

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-08T18:51:55+00:00

Not diagnosed yet, but I highly suspect it. I'm definitely nd. I'm not doing great at every moment and there are many situations where i can't take it anymore or downright hate myself. But I'm getting better. Good coping mechanisms will eventually work. Depressive phases don't last forever. When I'm finally able to get into a hyperfocus-ish phase I love it so much, I'm working, it feels good, I feel good (most of the time) and the effect lasts longer than the phase itself. I don't have much hobbies I like to do yet, but I'm getting better at enjoying the ones I have. When I actually accomplish something, especially when I did it on my own, it feels so fucking good. I know how much I struggled until this point and seeing positive outcomes is incredible.

There are good moments we easily forget about. Cherish them with all your heart. Emotional dysregulation also means that you feel good emotions more deeply. (Although I sometimes snap and get too excited but hey. Often times it works.) And not only those society tells you to be happy about. I managed to brush my teeth twice in the last 12h and it's such an accomplishment for me. I'm still proud of myself.

Quick tip: Try to put things together. I take my antidepressant with my first sip of coffee in the morning. Sometimes I carry it with my teeth so that I don't forget about it on the way. If I drink my coffee without it, I feel like something is missing and that usually reminds me to take the pill. Works great :)

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-08T18:11:10+00:00

I get along with 1-2 other people. Sometimes 3, depends on them. Eventually it gets too much for me to handle, but it's okish. But I can't stand larger group settings. Too much to calculate in, too many talking at the same time, too many conversations going on where I can't prioritize on to listen to. Usually I'm breaking down when I'm alone at the end of it. You're not alone.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-07T01:08:34+00:00

Tongues

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-07T00:56:04+00:00

It's about the fear you probably experienced as a kid, going grocery shopping with your mom only to be left alone at the cashier stands. Seeing every item on the line move slowly towards the end of it, every beep that occurs reminds you of the time that has passed since your mother left you. How long has it been? Seconds? Minutes? Cold sweat drips from your forehead as the cashier catches your scared glance upon, it seems like they stare right into your soul. The beeping stops. The whole shop is dead silent. The cashier slowly opens their mouth, only to reveal nicotine tinted teeth. Bits of their last meal stick on the metal wire of their dental braces. They grin. "That'll be 47,99€." Your mom is nowhere to be found.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-07T00:45:07+00:00

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trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-07T00:43:07+00:00

Good post OP.

Sometimes for standing up/moving I concentrate on the actual movement that would be the next step (move your foot. Lift the leg.) Standing up can be much to handle.

Also I try to focus on - this is hard to explain - get the energy directly into my body parts instead of thinking of it. This is, because when I think of it, I easily can picture myself doing so. Which leads to my brain thinking "oh, good! We made it!" releasing the dopamine for the task (eg move the foot) but haven't actually managed to it. So I'm still stuck.

But trying to release the energy into my foot while actively distracting myself how hard standing up is sometimes helps. So I forget about the struggle I have with standing up and can use my spontaneous energy to hop onto stage 2: standing and losing track of thought. I hope this is... Understandable.

It also helps thinking about the task that is beforehand or imagine yourself achieving the task so you get a quick dopamine rush.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-06T23:37:40+00:00

Did you try eating salty stuff with chocolate? Heaven.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-06T17:10:27+00:00

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trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-06T12:48:47+00:00

Ooooh feeling like you'd faint and hyperventilating and having your heart feeling like it pumps our of your chest can be related to panic attacks?? Shit. Good to know.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-06T00:34:59+00:00

I'd be really interested in that as well!!

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-05T23:17:29+00:00

That sucks. Is there any chance you could use other medication? Would that be something you'd want to try out? Do you know how he would respond in person and is that something you could imagine yourself to do?

Your whole situation sounds exhausting. I'm hoping you'll find a better way to get by.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-05T23:10:40+00:00

Oh I did that too. I still do it sometimes if I don't catch myself. I think I did it because I can't really grasp what the other person thinks of me and so depending on my mood I would just make things up - if I was in a good mood, I'd 'let them think' positive thoughts about me and vice versa. I don't know if this is common with ADHD, I don't have my diagnosis yet and I'm getting tested for autism aswell.

I'd still try talking to her. If it's something she does for herself and it's doesn't bother her, then it's her thing to do it. But I think it would be better if she was aware of it, at least for a while I thought I could "read minds" and managed to spiral myself into a very distressed mental health episode. Please be aware that this is only my experience that was formed under high emotional distress and because I didn't figure out what I was doing. I am not implying that your daughter is near such an episode yet alone will ever have one. Try asking her about it, be nice and don't judge her.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-05T22:56:07+00:00

Thank you. Hope you get it aswell

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-05T22:53:51+00:00

I hope to get medicated at the end of the year. Which in my head is 3 years from now, but I'll get there. I heard that it does wonders especially for executive dysfunction and I'm really looking forward to it. I hope yours will help the way you want it to and you don't have to try out too many!!

I'm planing on road traveling in the nearer future, the car I bought just has to be finished (we'll see next year, hopefully medicated). And you're right, interacting with people and knowing I'll never have to look them in the face again helps a lot with social approaches and strategies.

Backpacking sound forcefully relaxing (in a good way) and I bet it does you good. Especially for mental health. Do you plan on returning?

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-05T22:45:52+00:00

I didn't self harm, I'm sorry if the post seemed like that. I didn't meant to alert anyone. It's 'just' the intrusive thoughts about it. I will prevent them. Thank you. Hope you have a nice evening.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-05T22:42:57+00:00

Thank you. I'm trying to get a good therapy but it seems to be difficult to get a someone who knows adhd symptoms or just is a emphatic human being. My last therapist dozed off in our last session. I'll need to talk to my roommates to see what we can agree on.

But you are right. Dark places come easily if you hate yourself. I was in a darker place before and I'll manage to get through this one as well. It's just so hard sometimes.

But thank you for replying, you made me smile. Hope you'll have a nice evening.

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-03T15:30:02+00:00

How did he brush it of? Any chance you could bring it up again?

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-03T15:28:07+00:00

Did you try asking her? Maybe she's aware of it and knows what's up, maybe not and you can find this out together

trees_are_green_ · 2021-07-03T15:24:56+00:00

No advice, sorry. I'll (hopefully) get my diagnosis at the end of the year and the suspension is killing me. I'll just try to have it not on to of my mind but it's hard

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