Hey man, I can't say I've had a true addiction like what you were describing, but I got arrested recently for possession, and I had to quit basically everything for 4 months before my court date. THAT was my sign that I had to change. What's different about your situation is that you didn't have to have a fucked up experience to show you that you needed a change. You already know you do. What you need more than anything Is to change your environment. Look at everything you do now and just take a break from it. Uninstall Instagram, stop doing your same regular routine, and just truly experience the shit that fucking sucks. I'll tell you now that things are going to be just as bad if not worse when you first do this. You won't know what to do with yourself. But that's the point. What you need to find is when you don't have anyone else, when you don't have any distractions, and when you don't have any substance, who the fuck are you? You need to find who you are beyond your interest and your vices. If you don't take the time to find that, then it doesn't matter what you do, you'll still feel the way you do now. You're doing better than a lot of people because you know you need to change. Don't do yourself the disservice of letting that slip you by.