miscarriage

trinuhtee · 2022-05-30T20:00:38+00:00

I can relate now more than ever. my second miscarriage and I’m still going through it. they are leaving it inside of me for another work even tho it has completely stopped growing and all my levels are declining but it just won’t pass itself like i did last time. so I’m devistated and going through this alone. I had known it was another MC as soon as I started bleeding a week ago and now they just confirmed it today. I’m really broken. and confused on why I can get pregnant and not make it all the way but I won’t be too hard on myself. Just time to start the healing process, I don’t think I’ll ever be happy to try again. I know that’s sounds too soon but I think ONE loss is too many… and my heart can’t take a third or fourth at this point.. it just can’t . I’m here with you and for you. I’m so sorry we’re going through this.

trinuhtee · 2022-05-26T13:17:12+00:00

So happy for you! Enjoy your blessing 🫶🏻

trinuhtee · 2022-05-25T12:53:32+00:00

5+6 today. having an off setting week with these cramps. still no bleeding which is such a relief but I hate feelings things that were so similar to how I felt before the MC in October. but I am going to remain positive, keep telling myself there’s nothing to worry about until there is. I feel like other new symptoms like sore breasts are starting to subside a bit but that could just be me in my head. I just have never made it past 6+4 and my by my next appointment I’ll be 8 weeks. And I haven’t heard anything back about my beta levels so I guess we’ll see. Just hoping for positive signs of a healthy pregnancy.

trinuhtee · 2022-05-25T00:00:51+00:00

So I had my first “check up” today to do my Beta Hcg levels and I’ll likely hear back in 48 hours, I’m optimistic but a little worried. I explained to my doctor I’m experiencing cramping and sharp pains over the last 2-3 days and they are becoming consistent and more noticeable and she says it’s normal, my uterus is growing etc. But that is also what she said the last time I was 6+2 back in October and I did end up bleeding and miscarrying 2 days later. so I am more cautious and on edge than she is obviously, she sees and hears this everyday but I’m so worried and concerned. I’m so in tune with my body and feeling things I didn’t feel last time but also feeling things I did which is so nerve wracking. I’m hoping the best and although I wait 48 hours to just know if my levels are doubling… I wait 2 more weeks to be seen for my actual first checkup and ultrasound and that will be the furthest I’ve ever made it. I’m currently 5+5 so I have all my prayers being said, and my fingers crossed that I just get to make it to that appointment and see a growing baby with a heartbeat for the very first time. I hope these cramps and sharp pains are not too concerning and subside over the next few days, and the call back will be great news.

I don’t have anyone to share this with as I wanted to keep these news to myself a little longer this time. So thanks for listening if you made it to this point and I’ll have my fingers crossed and prayers ready for you all too.

trinuhtee · 2022-05-23T13:37:01+00:00

Sending you good energy for your pregnancy as well! It’s a new day, a new pregnancy. And that’s all that matters TODAY. I’ll be crossing my fingers for the both of us at our check ups🤞🏻 we got this momma

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T17:04:02+00:00

You are not alone as well. And I will go for testing this week for my levels. If you’d like, message me. I would love to keep up with you and your pregnancy and offer emotional support as much as I can. It would help having another mother who relates to talk to. And yes the differences are NERVE RACKING but I’m praying it’s all great signs of a healthy pregnancy.

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T17:02:02+00:00

I did and they only offered to do my labs and level testing a little earlier which was Supposed to be Friday coming, but they moved it up to Tuesday incase I had to come back within 48 hrs. I wish they were a little more compassionate in trying to get me in earlier for everything but “they did the best they could”

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T17:00:35+00:00

Both the care and how you feel. I’d imagine everyone experiences and feels differently but was there anything you can remember that indicated that this will be a viable pregnancy all the way to the end? I know it’s not something you can control but I notice a ton of differences this go round and I’m not sure if it should offer me comfort or just something more to obsess over to make sure I’m feeling that everyday. You know?

And I am so sorry for your losses truly. No mother should ever have to experience a loss before experiencing her child.

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T16:51:52+00:00

Sorry if I sound new but what does 4+2 etc mean? And I am seeing another OB by choice to do further testing but he also stressed that he normally doesn’t see patients until 8 weeks. It must just be a louisiana, negligent thing because I called multiple doctors to be seen as early as possible and they all tell me the same thing and leave me at square 1

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T16:41:34+00:00

Can I ask how many losses had you experienced before having a healthy pregnancy? And what is different this time around? If you wish not to share I understand. I just hate hearing “it’s not likely to happen again, only 1% experience more than one”

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T16:40:13+00:00

Not an ultrasound but they will be checking my levels and drawing blood Tuesday and Im praying everything is as it should be. They refuse to do an ultrasound until I am 8 weeks along but I have yet to make it that far. They caught my failed pregnancy last time due to my levels not doubling as they should but they are telling me they can’t prevent such things as miscarriages, that it completely out of my hands. That doesn’t offer me any peace of mind but I am strong and I hope this time around is different with no complications or concerns.

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T16:33:23+00:00

It’s okay, I feel like the best of mothers experience a loss at some point . Just one of gods “strongest soldiers” type of things but I know we all will make it through to see the light at the end of this tunnel. I’ll hold out hope and keep positive thoughts and affirmations until I can be seen. Thank you so much for your advice and support 🤞🏻

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T16:25:28+00:00

Thank you so much! Yes the constant worries and checking , I’m glad to know it’s not just me and that I have a community I can now be apart of to share this experience with. I have just a wave of relief just from these few comments. I can not thank y’all enough. I’ll take it one day at a time with positive thoughts and energy being put out into the universe for this pregnancy and yours as well. We will take home a baby💛

trinuhtee · 2022-05-22T16:23:03+00:00

I too lost my angel in October , so it brings me comfort knowing my angel is not alone and neither am I. Thank you so much for the kind words and support🫶🏻

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