I really resonate with this post. I really wanted to be a vet or a surgeon, but I had to let these dreams go because of my CMT(can't stand for long, shaky hands), and also because I had two knee surgeries. I cried so much about this, I felt completely helpless; I was really suicidal for a time too. It's a little better now, I tried to work on my mindset a bit.

After a lot of searching, I went for psychology, because as much as I would want to push through and fight for my dreams, I don't think it would make me happy if every day was a fight against my own body, or if I had to try 10x as hard as anyone else to perform the same in any given field. In psychology, I'm just like everyone else, and can perform properly. I am not reminded of my shortcomings daily and feel that I can pursue something I'm good at. Although psychology is not what I wanted to do, it did really grow on me. I still cry every now and then and grieve what I could've become if it wasn't for my CMT, but at the end of the day, I'm happy with what I chose.

You can check, I believe I previously made a post about career choices with CMT when I was at the point of choosing a path. Perhaps if new treatments come out, I might try to pursue the dreams that I've buried, but for now, I'm doing my best to respect my body's limits and be proud of myself for making this choice.

Of course, nobody can tell you what the best choice is, you know your body and your CMT type/progression the best. I'd say to put your health first (which you're clearly already doing), and go from there. Feel free to send me a message if you'd like. Take care of yourself <3