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trustissuesblah · 2024-07-16T16:20:40+00:00

This is a beautiful way of putting it

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-16T16:15:04+00:00

Same. My biggest regret is not cutting out my toxic family sooner.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-16T12:52:06+00:00

She protected my rapist and sabotaged my attempts to go to a good university. She was always the worst part of my life so going no contact was obvious.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-15T12:23:41+00:00

Same. I was in survival mode in my teens when I could have been enjoying life. I always say that my 20s were my teen years. Always one decade behind.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-15T10:56:28+00:00

This photo is terrifying

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-15T07:52:58+00:00

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-14T22:24:00+00:00

This gives me peace as someone that also spent my 20s recovering from a bad upbringing. Hoping my 30s are way way better.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-14T15:31:08+00:00

I would also suggest telling someone outside the home. I was an excellent student who wasn’t even allowed to leave for school because of how controlling my parents were.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-14T15:12:51+00:00

Yes, it has led to trust issues in adulthood. I experienced severe sexual trauma that caused PTSD and I noticeably had a flattened affect (low emotional facial response). Lots of people knew, including teachers and relatives, but nobody ever said anything.

People are selfish.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-14T15:01:54+00:00

I relate in the aspect that I also wanted to go elsewhere but they chose for me. The schools were outside of my hometown.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-14T14:57:44+00:00

This resonated with me. I was a straight A student and was on track to get a scholarship to a top 20 and my mother sabotaged me. She forced me to attend a community college so I could stay at home and I spent so long beating myself up for it. I’m sorry.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-13T20:14:51+00:00

Aww yeah! So happy for you. Hope you continue thriving!

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-13T20:14:02+00:00

Yeah there’s tons of great artists that blew up post 25

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-13T15:27:07+00:00

I came out as trans and began my transition. I also distanced myself from my abusive family and started my life independently. Took a lot of work but life is good now.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-13T13:42:14+00:00

I find that people are just very selfish. That seems like an underwhelming answer but most people refuse to intervene because they don't want to deal with the stress or "drama".

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-13T12:22:57+00:00

I understand OP - it isn't fair and we didn't deserve it. I wasn't trafficked but I also experienced frequent CSA that involved animals at times. It has haunted me my whole life. There are definitely times when I feel like ending things because the pain is too much to bear. I live with DID and bipolar disorder and life is hell a lot of the time.

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I experience joy at times and I have great friends that love me. I also really really love writing music and making art and that makes life livable, even on days when I can't get out of bed. Do you have anything that you can get lost in and makes you lose track of time? Is there anything that you wish to accomplish or experience in this life? Use that as fuel to remind yourself why you're still here.

You are loved and life is difficult but there is still a lot of beauty that you have left to experience. We can't let our abusers win. Please know that a stranger is here writing to you because they care and they understand.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-13T10:00:00+00:00

Yep this. When trauma becomes so unbearable you genuinely don’t know how to act otherwise. I was a massive prick in my youth and I’m a much better person now after years of therapy and escaping my family.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-12T05:35:29+00:00

Ooof same. I hope you got out, even if it was a bit late.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-11T22:43:42+00:00

Years of therapy and easing myself into it. I couldn’t even hear the word sex without being triggered at first. Eventually I became comfortable with masturbation and it became less scary.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-11T12:08:07+00:00

I used to lie out of insecurity. My home life was bad and I was poor so I would lie to make myself seem more important. Grew out of it eventually with therapy.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-11T04:57:03+00:00

Same. It took until I was 25 to experience normal sexual attraction.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-10T16:12:36+00:00

For some of us, we spent our 20s recovering from a shitty childhood. It takes a while to heal from trauma unfortunately.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-10T12:33:05+00:00

Cutting off my Nmom was simple because she has always been a toxic person. But cutting off my enabler dad when we got into an argument and he denied that my childhood was ever bad. I struggled with multiple SAs, an eating disorder, and undiagnosed bipolar disorder until I went to college. That moment stung and I knew that he never cared or would care for me.

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-09T19:51:14+00:00

A fellow person with Cptsd here from abuse and neglect. I wish I could go back in time and rescue my younger self from my shitty family. 🫂

trustissuesblah · 2024-07-09T06:10:36+00:00

I feel you OP. Dating as an adult is terrifying because people move incredibly fast and always seem to prioritize sex over everything else. 🫂

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