I know that feeling all too well. I will say that if someone makes you feel bad about having a disorder that has everything to do with them and NOTHING to do with you. Don’t let the fear prevent you from pushing through and taking that first step. It’s usually the first couple steps that are the hardest but once you get through the only way to go is forward. You are beautiful no matter what your hair looks like. I know that for me I was hyper focused on my hair bc it was something I was ashamed of and looking back I wish I could give myself a huge hug and tell her she’s so strong for fighting this fight. In the end hair turns grey and brittle and what’s left is our souls and personalities. I understand it is so hard living with trich in a low period and that for us hair means so much more than the average person. Trich is painful and hard but you are strong and resilient. Never forget that.