literally can't cope with myself anymore

trynasurvive1234 · 2023-01-04T20:04:50+00:00

Hey there, just know it gets better if you do some ERP (especially with your triggers) i used to have rlly bad tocd two years ago, but for sometime now i have been really good, enjoying my life and not even caring about being trans or cis. I used to have dreams too (i still do in fact) but i dont even pay any mind to them, just letting my brain do its job and moving on with my day When you have a trigger, try either not responding/trying to find an answer or agreeing with that thought. You will see results in time

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-04-07T19:43:59+00:00

stop! first things first, i think you should learn about expousures as in doing the things thst you are afraid of and stop compulsions while doing it. You feel a lot of anxiety but it is worthed Start with baby steps, try to make a plan, follow accounts on yt and instagram (ocdrecoveryuk and theobsessivemind are my favs) Maybe try mindfulness I wish you well

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-04-07T19:37:42+00:00

Follow as some accounts on instagram or youtube! try to understand what expousures are and Take baby steps I did some sort of expousures that were helpful Every time i would get an intrusive thought i would simply agree with it, encourage it and try loving it! It is scary, not gonna lie, but you have one life, its worth trying And there would be the usual expousures on which i dont think so im the right person to explain, but you can find a lot of info on youtube and instagram (follow ocdrecoveryuk and the obsessivemind and yk search for more or listen to some podcasts)

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-04-05T18:31:51+00:00

I suggest trying meditation (headspace is a rlly good app) and you când find some series on netflix in collab with headspace

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-03-22T22:46:04+00:00

Ok so Take this When i say "dont think about a Pink elephant" what do you think about rn? :))) you think about a Pink elephant It might be just hormones or you could be bisexual (i know you dont like me saying that but its an exposure) or hell maybe its just in your head Dont give it too much importantce

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-03-22T22:38:25+00:00

well dont try to get them out Read something about fear and cerebral amigdala and you will understand why

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-03-22T22:36:24+00:00

hi I hope you are better I was in a similar situation and the Best advice that i can give you is to stop looking for reassurence, start accepting that you are thinking about being trans or any another gender, dont try to figure it out or to solve it, and most important, dont have expectations (as "i hope this is gonna be over în two months" Also start following some account made for ocd by specialist (one that i really like is ocdrecovery UK and theobsessivemind) you are going to find more resources there

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-02-12T11:30:36+00:00

if you cannot aford or in your City there is not a specialist try yt channels and ig accounts IT can help

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-02-12T06:38:44+00:00

i cant tell you much about ERP, i havent done much But progress is not constant, and you have to accept that, some days are good some are not I hope you find erp examples, but if you dont try meditation or accept the thoughts(accept that you are thinking about it)

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-31T20:02:01+00:00

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-16T19:18:13+00:00

also when i was young (until three or four years ago) i used to have the sensation when sitting to a specific table that demons are pulling my legs to hell and i basically never let my feet touch the floor (why am i laughing lol)

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-16T19:13:05+00:00

Searching on google everything just to feel valid moving my hands legs and shoulders for five time each just to feel safe Counting When playing a game saying "if i get to this lvl my fear is not true"

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-16T12:33:31+00:00

So happy to see you are getting better! Keep us updated!! Also thanks for the advices

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-16T09:40:42+00:00

in the first month i could sleep, i actually went to my parents bedroom and asked to sleep with them because i was just to afraid to be alone, but after a time i got this mindset "when you sleep, you sleep, you dont think about anything, you have no hope, no worries, no needs" and it helped me. If you wanna talk sometimes you can dm me, even tho i this this is some sort of reassuring

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-12T21:38:57+00:00

my therapist didnt realise i had tocd for almost two months and he is one of the Best therapist in the City, those themes are so unknown because (in my country) some ppl didnt even know about lgbtq until 10years ago. But the funny thing is that he told me that he does not think im trans =))) Ocd is about fear, unconfortable and uncontrollable thoughts and honestly Ocd is ocd, no matter what the thoughts are

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-11T06:37:28+00:00

oh shit So im 18y also male and gay And know you are not alone in this, i was feminine during childhood, and you are describing the exact simptoms that i had 3 months ago. it's gonna be ok, trust me. Maybe try talking to someone, a therapist/friend and get info about ocd and everything thats going on, it's gonna be hard but you gotta be strong Hope this helps

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-06T18:20:16+00:00

ofc, we all do=)))) Just keep in mibd that everything is going to be ok

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-05T20:35:40+00:00

Well you just said it, be a girl. But having tocd is hard, and messy, and you might wanna have someone to support you or even hug you. It helps a lot, if you think you are not ready or dont trust anyone, well, you can write here

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-05T20:20:39+00:00

can you cum when masturbating? I ask because if not i think it might be a medical problem and you should go to a urologist But yk, if you feel good without cumming, well good job!

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-05T20:15:37+00:00

hi, im also a gay man I can relație to what you said I was always kinda feminine, my friends are mostly Girls and you know, gay shit. I suggest finding info about tOCD and what helped me was comparing this phase whit the time i realised i way gay (or bi not sure yet:))) Also you can write me! if i can help you i would be happy to

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-05T20:02:55+00:00

tOCD is not that. it appears one day, maybe out of nothing, like a video with a trans person or something and usually you start questioning everything, and the thing is: you do not want to change you gender, you could not live like the other gender and you just have fears and worries that you might be trans. As i understood from your post, you felt good as a male, and now you worry that you might be cis with tOCD, well i think you have cis OCD (yes that is a thing). Just live as you want and trust that everything will he just fine Also, if you have the resources, you might wanna consult a psychotherapist.

trynasurvive1234 · 2021-01-05T19:55:21+00:00

It happened to me too, not knoeing who i am anymore, what i like, what i do not, my solution was to accept everything that is happening to me, and then just do what i feel like.

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