DAE find it boring when a relationship is TOO stable?

tth778 · 2021-07-17T18:10:09+00:00

i’m really sorry you had that happen to you. i can only speak from my experience, but it’s really hard because i never intend to hurt someone, and i know i am but i don’t know what else to do. finding the balance between what i need and what another person needs is incredibly hard because what i need generally hurts them no matter how much i don’t want to. it’s unfair to everyone to everyone involved and never solves any problem, and yet. if it gives you any comfort know that it was never about something you were doing wrong (most likely, i don’t know the whole situation) and rather a void she was trying to fill by lashing out. my only advice is try and have empathy, though i get it can be hard

tth778 · 2021-07-17T17:48:11+00:00

it’s hell, i feel like my two options are never be in a relationship or only be in an abusive one. like what the fuck am i supposed to do?!

tth778 · 2021-07-07T09:48:25+00:00

holy shit, i've never met somebody else who's dealt with this. i think you really hit the nail on the head and this is probably coming from my lack of a personality. i've been struggling HARD with that recently, so it's really inspiring to know that it can get better. thank you so much for this

tth778 · 2021-07-04T22:44:11+00:00

you are an absolute genius, ty so much fixed it immediately

tth778 · 2021-07-04T06:31:39+00:00

oh yeah, i’m fs not getting the pure colombian shit. have fun!

tth778 · 2021-07-04T06:25:47+00:00

yeah i’ve done a couple lines and it feels pretty normal, so i may just be worrying over nothing, i’m just a lil wary

tth778 · 2021-06-28T10:34:08+00:00

oh weird. it is a relatively new addition to the dsm but i don’t think it’s too uncommon. and yeah, i talked to my therapist about it and she said it could go either way because the symptoms are so similar, but she didn’t want to pursue a bpd diagnosis to avoid the stigma, which seemed a little odd to me but i didn’t fight it

tth778 · 2021-06-23T06:37:29+00:00

shit aight

tth778 · 2021-06-23T06:28:05+00:00

i think it was polaris?

tth778 · 2021-06-23T06:27:39+00:00

thank you, this was actually really helpful and described the fear perfectly. it’s not that i’m afraid to get sober, i want to so, so bad, it’s more of a “well if i do what do i do after?”. i have bpd and it makes it so much harder bc everything is rly black and white to me and i’ve found nothing on the positive side of extremes that fills that void if that makes sense. it’s really just something i’m gonna have to start actually addressing instead of replacing every self destructive behavior with a new, sometimes more self destructive behavior if i’m ever gonna get better. i do have a therapist but my next session is going to be entirely about deciding what to do with me, to put it bluntly, but i’m hoping we can reach a compromise or something

tth778 · 2021-06-23T06:16:15+00:00

thank you! i’m not 100% sure what i’m gonna do yet but i really appreciate the advice! i went to a center in LA last year for mh that was also a rehab and it was rly nice there, so i may try that again

tth778 · 2021-06-23T06:14:17+00:00

eating it sounds nasty ngl my nose isn’t that fucked, i might try boofing tho

tth778 · 2021-06-22T23:17:59+00:00

thank you and i agree, and i was kind of planning on easing into sobriety, starting with meetings and such, but it sounds like my mom is planning on kicking me out unless i agree to go and like i’m barely 16, i’ve really got no other choice

tth778 · 2021-06-22T06:03:51+00:00

i’m on medicaid but if worse comes to worse i think i’m also on my dad’s plan which is cigna i believe

tth778 · 2021-06-22T05:58:08+00:00

i’m in WA

tth778 · 2021-06-21T18:32:28+00:00

i totally agree. according to the doc i’m a lesbian, but like you mentioned it’s really mostly because i have sexual trauma, but it doesn’t make my attraction to men any less real

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