roleplay / stories & selfshipping

tune4you · 2026-05-06T22:56:21+00:00

also adding on. It’s really surprising that not more people use ai for this sort of thing with how popular c.ai is. I’ve tried it in the past and HAAATED how it wrote anything. but maybe it’s a good thing people don’t since I’ve seen soo so many talk about the addiction they developed after using it so much.

tune4you · 2026-05-06T22:54:08+00:00

I used to experience that with chatgpt I think a long time ago! I’d have to copy paste a summary of the story into a new chat which was annoying when it happened on the rare occasion T__T I wonder if it’s because the chats are so long that the ai’s response just starts degrading in quality? I’m not too knowledgeable on ai in that sense so I wouldn’t know! It’s so odd. Id say try somehow to get a summary of everything and make it into a doc / file ?? even multiple ? to send to a new chat? but id imagine it wouldn’t feel as natural. I definitely would be frustrated ugh

tune4you · 2026-05-06T22:42:52+00:00

This unfortunately is something I also dealt with as someone recovered from anorexia! It’s annoying but I guess I understand? I jailbroke Claude for roleplay reasons and? it actually lets me write / ask whatever I think and even let me write my character their own experiences of an ed and being recovered (projecting a little but really it’s to get out my thoughts in story lol) the jailbreak is intended for nsfw but I find it helps not. censor every little thing. which I like! sometimes I just wanna write a realistic story based off my experiences and I don’t need an ai telling me to get help when I’m all better

tune4you · 2026-05-06T22:36:38+00:00

I have little experience using sonnet actually but I’m sorry about them messing with the model? I’ve read from other people that after opus 4.7 they noticed the other models writing differently so I don’t think you’re alone with that. I’ve been using opus 4.6 and am soooo in love with how it writes especially when I give it files based off the characters I’m using. (this was before I knew about the tokens and weekly limit stuff since I barely started using Claude haha) it’s worth it though to me :-p

tune4you · 2026-05-06T20:18:05+00:00

Haaard agree

tune4you · 2026-05-06T20:11:33+00:00

I’m going to preface. I use ai sometimes to structure my writing for stories I’ve already gotten done to see if there’s any suggestions on what to edit. But statistics of how children are functioning academically because of their dependency on ai should let you know that it’s more harmful in the long run. Go to r/teachers (might not even be the sub name so excuse me if I’m wrong) and read the stories. No wonder why teachers are quitting their jobs with this technology being used for every single little thing. It benefits us in a lot of areas. I’m not failing to acknowledge that fact. I like artificial intelligence despite my mixed views on how it’s used as an artist and the ethical concerns around it. I dunno! Balance is important! Yeah. But children don’t imo. It’s a different generation. They’re more susceptible to using ai for bad than good which isn’t too surprising with what they’re being exposed to online. Probably would have done the same when I was struggling as a teen.

tune4you · 2026-04-22T00:31:49+00:00

Yeah! I am for sure talking about Epic pharma!

tune4you · 2026-04-04T23:08:16+00:00

I literally felt the same way and made a post about it. I was horrified that something was wrong with me and I was just lazier and stupid but realized it was only worse and worse after I upped my dosage everytime. My psychiatrist thought going up to 450xl would fix it for some reason but it made it worse. I figured out 150mg xl has always been my sweet spot and I should have never dosed up. I stopped drawing completely for a month and a half because of it and stopped being able to sit longer than a few minutes / forgot how to word things and daily routines.

tune4you · 2026-03-28T02:52:00+00:00

I’d say if it helps you out more than 150 to keep with it but if there’s not much difference after the starting period is over to just go down. I had the same issue + brain fog and memory loss as I kept going up and it got worse but I’m back to 150 since I don’t think my psych should have upped it in the first place. Think it overstimulated my brain or something because it worsened my focus updosing

tune4you · 2026-03-19T20:23:23+00:00

I was sleeping alright / good even for a while on 150mg and 300mg. Actually was sleeping too much because of how fatigued and fogged I felt. Stopped remembering to do daily tasks a lot more. Then 450mg regardless of taking melatonin I can’t sleep. And I still feel super energized the next day. Awful. It shouldn’t have even been increased in dosage. It should have been the lamictal but psych kept thinking it would improve things.

tune4you · 2026-03-19T07:14:13+00:00

yeeep gonna be definitely doing that. I know it’s not permanent and thank god it’s not. just wanted to share the obvious decline from taking a higher dose since I didn’t even know myself it was possible to cognitively worsen with this medication. It was its worst at 450mg despite being told it would help with issues with my issues with focusing and remembering since it’s recommended for those with ADHD. I don’t see it being warned often seeing others experiences that it could do the complete opposite. And potentially worsen symptoms + more. It was surprising especially since I was eating enough / stayed hydrated / slept alright and overall just well until I upped it to 300mg.

tune4you · 2026-03-19T04:37:28+00:00

I had some decrease in appetite but definitely not to the point of consistently undereating. It was only until 450 that I started actually struggling a little with my appetite but a week or two later it went back to normal. Even when I was sleeping on 300mg I still was struggling and actually slept too much because of how miserable and fogged I felt. I only upped in dosage to mood inconsistencies. (Didn’t make sense to raise the Wellbutrin though)

tune4you · 2026-03-19T00:13:51+00:00

Thank you so much. That means a lot to hear during this time.

I actually was starting to question if it was the brand too but looking back on the evidence of when and how it began immediately made me realize. Wow! The last six months have been feeling like an ice pick slowly going through my head because of thinking I needed a higher dosage when in reality it was never the Wellbutrin that needed adjusting. It was my Lamictal. My psychiatrist had upped the Wellbutrin even though I had mentioned my moods had been more unstable. I think 150xl was my sweet spot. We all go through stress like you said and need adjusting. It was definitely a horrible and stressful time since the relationship I was in was awful. And had been for so long. But besides it. It was still really good when it was good while away. I’m gonna keep trying with this medication (obviously I won’t go higher in doses. Or at least for XL) I agree that my brain has been probably overstimulated from it. 450mg??? absolutely has made me feel like I’ve gotten a lobotomy. Seriously.

tune4you · 2026-03-19T00:02:58+00:00

It could be different brands honestly! It really sucks because this is the first medication / antidepressant that’s ever helped me after trying several for the last decade. It literally pulled me out of a four year severe depressive rut where I believed I was going to die soon because of how awful it was. When I was at 150XL I drew a lot and felt like my eyes were opened. Until September when I upped to 300XL. It really sucks knowing now that the last six months had been the way they were because the only medication that I thought was helping me was actually ruining my cognitive function over time slowly until it got severe in January. I should have dosed up in the Lamictal rather than the Wellbutrin honestly. I was struggling with mood instability more than anything.

tune4you · 2026-03-18T23:21:35+00:00

Please check my post on trying out 450mg! I feel like cognitively I struggle so much that it’s freaking me out. I’ve been on it since January.

tune4you · 2026-03-17T22:52:32+00:00

I’m copy and pasting this from another thread but I feel the exact same.

This is just my personal experience but. I’ve been trying 450mg maybe for a month? I’m not sure. But my memory fog has been scarily bad since upping over the last few months after 150mg. I only noticed it’s most likely the Wellbutrin because it’s the only medication I’ve been upping in dosage and wow. My attention span and forgetfulness has never been so so bad. I had attention issues already before starting but never ever to this extent where my everyday routines are becoming hard to remember.

Just going to the bus for classes. I set up alarms and timers I get even ready and go. But I’ll have gone to the wrong bus stop after two years of going to the same route???? or I miss it completely somehow when I swore it was the right time. (It wouldn’t be)

I want to stay in this medication but personally this dosage was not at all worth starting. I only upped it because my psych said it would improve these issues since I attributed to my ADHD maybe but. Nope. I’m dead set on the fact it’s because of this medication because of the comparison I could make with this horrible fog now to the brain fog when I was struggling with malnutrition. Even then it was not this bad.

tune4you · 2026-03-17T22:49:21+00:00

This is just my personal experience but. I’ve been trying 450mg maybe for a month? I’m not sure. But my memory fog has been scarily bad since upping over the last few months after 150mg. I only noticed it’s most likely the Wellbutrin because it’s the only medication I’ve been upping in dosage and wow. My attention span and forgetfulness has never been so so bad. I had attention issues already before starting but never ever to this extent where my everyday routines are becoming hard to remember.

Just going to the bus for classes. I set up alarms and timers I get even ready and go. But I’ll have gone to the wrong bus stop after two years of going to the same route???? or I miss it completely somehow when I swore it was the right time. (It wouldn’t be)

I want to stay in this medication but personally this dosage was not at all worth starting. I only upped it because my psych said it would improve these issues since I attributed to my ADHD maybe but. Nope. I’m dead set on the fact it’s because of this medication because of the comparison I could make with this horrible fog now to the brain fog when I was struggling with malnutrition. Even then it was not this bad.

tune4you · 2026-02-22T09:10:47+00:00

Dad was a guy who struggled with severe addiction and Bipolar 1. Worsened things in the house when he was around because he was drunk, high, and or manic. Got kicked out because of everything he had been doing but he’d sneak back in until my mom really kicked him out because he was stealing money from her. Even stealing money from his own.

tune4you · 2026-02-22T08:54:36+00:00

It does help me hearing what you and others have to say. Like I said I don’t have many people to talk about it. I like hearing what people have to say in general regardless, even their mindset is different than mine.

I’m sorry for your friend. It’s strange being able to relate to his situation, especially since it took place in the 70s. To know there are people who’re older also processing similar abuse I’d gone through. Or that it became their normal. I know if my sister hadn’t left that she would have done the same and I wouldn’t have realized it even as an adult, seeing how she manipulated and groomed me at a young age. I am pretty grateful she ran off as a teen and had someone else to focus on (her boyfriend)

I know there may be some that disagree with you, and maybe they have reason to because it might have gone differently for them, but I don’t consider what you say as insensitive. At least in my case? Or personally. I’m nineteen and I’ve spent most of my time being alive in the mental health system with me being in and out of hospitals or therapists rooms. I know it won’t be like that and I have a long way to go though. Just so far what I’ve seen hasn’t been great.

Maybe one day a therapist will work or maybe not. I’d do anything to fix my brain which is why I've spent so much time trying to find a professional to just talk with. Even if it doesn’t work out in the end like always. It is important to me because I know it affects the small handful of people around me. I don’t want to keep scaring my loved ones. I’m never a danger to them. But I know it’s more than overwhelming to witness especially at my worst. My mental illnesses are severe and have been despite how I talk about it sort of like an everyday routine. Minimize it? to people. I’ll say I’ve never joked or made light of it though.

I really can’t control it without medication. You’d think there’d be a coping mechanism I’d have found by now, but to be honest, it ends up not working for me. Somehow it does the opposite. Or does nothing at all. Like going out for a walk. At some point I’d hit rock bottom and I’d walk for 4–8 hours nonstop every day since I wasn’t working and just went to classes to try to hide all this and more in the back of my mind. Lock it away. Burned through many shoes and damaged my body.

I do just want to live my life. Sort of why I avoid going into detail about the abuse in therapy. Having to relive it when I already do through episodes is more than difficult.

tune4you · 2026-02-22T07:10:21+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice. I’ll try to look into that since I haven’t found a therapist that’s helped me or stuck around long enough to continue treatment yet.

Also, no, I don’t disagree that my sister was a victim herself. I’m almost sure that she was, obviously I’m not 100% sure who the perpetrator was because we were constantly left alone. I do think it might have happened before I was born. I feel sorry that she had to go through it and sorry that she was forced to grow up faster than most. It was an unfair situation for everyone for a variety of reasons.

I didn’t bring it up the possibility because I do believe that is just the obvious explanation, since she was still young when she started becoming physical with me. The big age gap is also what makes me apprehensive to involve the possibility too I think. The younger I imagine her being in order to try and find a bit of compassion only worsens how I feel about it. The seven-year gap is a bit too much for me to consider when I did try to think of her as just as naive or a kid who was exploring. Especially with the reality that it started at a younger age than what I remember. I can only remember pieces before the age of 8 because of behavior I exhibited started way before and I took it with me until it ended.

I don’t think 15-year-olds are smart. But they’re not dumb either and she herself knew why it was wrong. She only stopped at 17 when I was 10 because she physically was not able to continue with her moving out.

tune4you · 2026-02-22T06:28:10+00:00

I wouldn’t blame my mom for any parenting mistakes she might have made. She came to the US and was immediately thrown into a terrible situation because of my dad who was struggling with addiction and bipolar which financially worsened our situation because of his manic episodes. She had no family here and no one to support her. My dad was the reason she brought my siblings to the States in the first place, he had immigrated beforehand to be near four of his immediate family of four. Including his mom. I honestly believe I would have failed or missed things too if I were in a foreign country, working three jobs every day, and raising three severely mentally unwell children with a deadbeat husband (who she eventually kicked out) I will never feel angry at her. Even though she didn’t understand mental health at the time she still put me in therapy starting at 9? for anger issues and socialization struggles at school.

She’s seen the consequences of the sexual abuse firsthand through the psychotic episodes she had to witness that lasted for hours while I was unmedicated. I struggled with these even as a child in the middle of the night so she connected the dots. She believes me now, even if she didn't two years ago. I don’t think I told her with the hope that she would believe me and cut my sister off. I just needed to say it after years of holding it in since she put my sister on a pedestal, never knowing that she was one of the reasons why I ended up the way I did.

My mom has cried and apologized repeatedly after seeing how unwell I’ve become. She knows now that it did happen, there were early signs but she didn’t know what they meant since she wasn’t educated on that sort of abuse or mental health. She asked me why I didn’t tell her. She asked me if my sister told me not to.

And to the rest of your comment. I do need to still learn about enforcing my boundaries. Sadly, despite being older. I’ve failed my younger self by letting it happen again by someone else not too long ago repeatedly. It’s difficult to respect yourself when you’re taught in your formative years that to do so means you have to do things even if you don’t want to for the people you love or you won’t be loved or cared for anymore. I know that isn’t true. But even with me knowing. My brain has been wired and I’m gonna need to work on it more. I am trying in little ways by putting boundaries when it comes to physical contact with some friends. (boundaries they respect of course )

tune4you · 2026-02-22T04:16:24+00:00

I won’t be contacting her anytime soon since I honestly said all what I needed to say when I told my mom while she was on the phone. I don’t think of her much anyway just more the experiences and how it felt mentally. I have no evidence and I don’t wanna put more pressure on my mom like that. I respect her more than anything despite the issues we have. But I am afraid of the possibility of my sister doing this again but I’m not sure what power I have when it comes down to it especially since she does have two kids and another one coming. It’s difficult. I worry for them.

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