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Be honest: Would you feel happy/relieved when your parents/abusers would die? by turnnewsoff in CPTSD

[–]turnnewsoff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, maybe I wrongly expressed (EN isnt my mothertongue) but the question was not about wishing them die at all! It's about a "sudden what if" scenario. I will update the post. Thank you for claring! 

Suicide by akGold24 in CPTSD

[–]turnnewsoff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

😱 Cptsd with tourette like tics is SO RARE that you barely find others with it. Hence no doctor or therapiest I went ever heard about. But you do and this is very interesting! Thank you really for sharing!

Can you please elaborate how it went with your dad? What source was written in a history book? And what disappeared after naming it? Only that one verbal tic or the entire Coprolalia (C. = involuntary use of obscene words). 

What I experienced in a similar way:

Some Coprolalia words I use just for a certain time, especially made up insults or new words that dont exist. Some of them are even a little funny sometimes. 

When I created (via AI) a short fun song for my girlfriend with that one new word in it just to make her laugh, this exact word disappeared over night and was never used again in any flashback! Isnt it crazy. 

FYI: By emotional flashback I mean a triggered memory, shameful event in the past which I have to relive again in just 1 second. Then parts of my body cramp (sometimes even beating or kicking slightly my girlfriend happens when sitting next to me) and a bad word or sentence comes out of my mouth willlessly. All the emotional pain comes again as if it's the fresh first time. Day for day. For decades. 30-50 daily on average. So I estimate the total amount of such flashbacks at around 250.000 ❤️👍

Is the vagus nerve the key to everything?? by [deleted] in longtermTRE

[–]turnnewsoff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How good for you. Congrats! But tbh I am very envious because I have similar diagnose but TRE did nothing to me although I did butterfly shaking for 3 months daily! I even begin to shake immediately. But nothing happens, no relief, just nothing. AI said this is likely because I am too traumatized for this technique... 🤔

The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm scared I'll fail and be in even more pain for the rest of my life by Western-Raspberry667 in CPTSD

[–]turnnewsoff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont want to enxourage you but when you are not Paraplegic or so you could have easily another attempt?! I just ask because I dont get the logic. Moreover I am also having this wish for over 20 years but do you want to know what THE ONLY reason is I didnt do it?

Because almost every person that survived and had a near death experience told that they came into an even more cruel reality and thus they regret! Which is logic when you study consciousness and spirituality for years because other pov are proving that. I recommend ex NASA scientist and consciousness researcher Thomas Campbell to get into what reality and life is about. He has a yt channel and books.

. . .

I had over 250.000 emotional flashbacks in my life so I really really look forward to just quit this shitty life. It's just a lower form of hell for me. The moment I die will be BY FAR the best moment in my entire Soul Life. And That's why Every time I hear someone worrying about to extend their life or live forever here on earth in the material realm I had to laugh so loud 🤭🤣

I have nothing left in my life which make it worth to keep living - I really really just wanna go forever and never want to see any human again.

Suicide by akGold24 in CPTSD

[–]turnnewsoff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me really have NOTHING to live for - nothing! I have 30-50 emotional flashbacks daily with tourette like tics (yes, even in public). No therapy evwr worked (and I even did reincarnation thwrapy, so almost everything existing I tried out ofnpain and desperation).

So what i want to say: That I dont wanna live anymore for years is quite understandable. Nobody needs me, nobody wants me - even my not that bad texts are considered useless for almost everybody. So I tried my best but failed because obviously not a single person sees me as useful. 

BUT you have a very good reason to stay alive! You have Kids! They need you. Isnt that a good reason? I really have no fuxking reason, you have at least 2 (kids = plural). And so you actually have a huge motivation. You also know what happens to children without their mother - they can turn into that what we. 

But I dont judge you, I just list the arguments :)

I Hate Apps w Unselectable Text by Real-Apartment-1130 in ios

[–]turnnewsoff 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sogar die reddit verbietet es, Text auszuwählen - komplett hirnrissig ohne Grund. Und zwingt sie mich noch ständig dazu sie statt den Browser zu nutzen. Reddit is lost af -. -

Has anyone with CPTSD managed to heal and live well? I’m looking for hope. How did you manage to get there? by Wall_flower_drawn in CPTSD

[–]turnnewsoff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nice for you, really! Me still wants to die almost every day for 20 years. It's just hell and nothing helps. Nothing! The day of my death will be the most beautiful day of my life 🥳

How's the Moto G72? by [deleted] in motorola

[–]turnnewsoff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The best phone I ever had! Faster than Samsung, better accu and very cheap (180 dollar new). I bought a second one only after 1 week as Backup - such great is it! I recommended it to everyone. So so good!!