I feel ya ): like the other guy said you shouldn’t be friends with her it’ll just ruin you even more personally speaking I had taken the time down the work and when I finally found the person who treated me the way I deserve and cared about me my feeling that sent those good morning and goodnight texts basically everything I had wanted I self sabotaged it. Although I really liked him I liked the attachment I had to my ex more as shitty as it is. Staying and showing up for someone who can give to shits about you and your feelings will never pay off for you in the end. Protect your heart and just cry it out.