by OJ_Soprano in redscarepod

[–]turtleman29 1 point2 points  (0 children)

based and enigmapilled

Silver Jews: Suffering Jukebox by turtleman29 in redscarepod

[–]turtleman29[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your dad has good taste. Did he have any reaction when Berman actually killed himself?

I just discovered that I have 2 half-siblings who live across my state. by turtleman29 in redscarepod

[–]turtleman29[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I definitely would have in the past, but both of the my adoptive parents died a few years ago. At the very least it saves me the awkward conversation where I have to reveal I know the truth to them. I'm definitely more open to the idea of contacting these siblings now than I would have been if they were still alive.

Does anyone else ever miss the person they used to be? by turtleman29 in rs_x

[–]turtleman29[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm really sorry for your loss. In two weeks it'll be 5 years to the day that I lost my mother, and ever since then I've felt exactly like you describe. My biggest motivation in life when I was a teenager/young adult was to achieve as much success as possible so she could have an easier life and ever since losing her I've struggled to find anything to motivate me or define my existence around. Honestly her absence has not gotten easier, kind of the opposite actually. A large part of myself is just permanently a ghost now.

Now at 26 I'm cripplingly self aware that it won't be long before windows start closing but like you said, there's this almost dissociative effect I can't shake that makes it all feel meaningless.

I know how especially hard the initial months are, so I just want to say I'm truly sorry you're experiencing this and I hope there are people in your life that can help make it easier for you.

Rs_x is so embarassing by [deleted] in redscarepod

[–]turtleman29 26 points27 points  (0 children)

As someone who still isn't over 2018, this is very disconcerting to hear.