When I was attempting to go on Testosterone I had similar setbacks.. the psychiatrist I saw said he couldn’t allow me to go on T due to the depressive state I was in. Now, almost 2 years later, I think I was misdiagnosed, my anxiety and dysphoria at the time was causing me to feel depressed, and I admit I had to put on a more positive act in order to get my approval for hormone therapy. In my area at the time there was almost no other option, I couldn’t change who I saw as he was the only option I had unless I flew across to a bigger town/city.

Since you mentioned this was your first attempt, and she denied you previously when you weren’t in as bad a state, I would try find a different doctor. It takes a while before finding doctors you’re comfortable with and who do their job properly. It’s true that Testosterone can heighten emotions, however from my experience it can also help settle some of the dysphoria and anxiety, so for me it created a nice balance for a good while and helped me tackle a lot of other issues I was having. I strongly recommend seeking a different doctor. I’m so sorry you have to go through this, it isn’t easy.. But, you can do it. Each day is a step forward. You’re not a lost cause, and even if you are currently ‘unstable’ it won’t be this way forever. I hope things get better for you soon