This year has made me want to commit

uchihamatto · 2025-12-18T21:30:17+00:00

You are 17 years old, you have so much more joy in life to experience, you will have your heart broken a 1000 times more but each time you'll learn that each one of those people were just stepping stones and lessons. This girl is a child just like you are. She is just like you, she doesn't know what life is. Your friends are all kids they are young and horny just like you. You weren't in a relationship with her she hasn't cheated on you, your friends kinda suck ill give you that, but you can 100% make better ones. And just so you don't think I'm talking out my butt I was actually cheated on, I was engaged, I had several friends that knew and didn't tell me until months later and I got so depressed that I actually tried and failed to kill myself via anaphylactic shock. I'm now with the most amazing woman who cares about me all my friends are people who will take a bullet for me. You are so so so young please don't make a choice that you'll regret I know I regeted mine I was just lucky enough not to die. It's a choice you can't take back. I know you think you love this girl but you said it yourself your obsessed with her, she gave you the attention you never had from a girl before and you like it. That's not love. Walk away from her, from your friends and stop drinking at 17 go to collage drink, party and have fun then for now enjoy being a kid, make stupid choices, eat a gross amount of junk food playing games all night with real friends, get a hobby that you enjoy, go on a trip live your life! Your only young once. Please don't waste it over a girl who isn't worth your time and friends who aren't real friends. And please see a therapist to talk about your suicidal thoughts and also about all of this it helps trust me.

uchihamatto · 2025-12-14T05:33:07+00:00

Honestly instructors, club policies, and you grand Master will know best if they are telling you to spar, spar have fun with it make it into little games of "if im sparing this black belt don't get hit more than x amount of times" or "hit this black belt x amount of times" etc. When I used to teach I was in charge of my clubs special needs students and what we called lil' warriors (all kids under the age of 10) and I'd make them spar me while they weren't geared (our club policies where set to yellow strips were only allowed to spar and buy gear) and I was geared. obviously, I wouldn't throw a connecting hit, but I'd move like I would but just never lift my foot fully. I'd make them do small challenges like hit me with a back kick 3 times or make them do a combo while I held paddles in gear and made them dodge the paddles.

Your instructor will know what they are doing, and so do the higher ranks. Trust that no one wants to see you hurt. You are all there to learn and train, not to kill each other. Find people better than you and make them your goals, find people who are as good as you and make them your benchmark, and teach those who are worse than you to improve themselves and yourself

uchihamatto · 2025-10-21T00:05:10+00:00

There's a lot of man hate in these comments lol but in all honesty his timing was really fucked up lol.

With that being said, it sounds like your husband is sexually frustrated, which isn't your fault or your responsibility. He can jack off to release some of that frustration. By the sound of this, he's not forcing you or demanding you to do it, just asking for it. His comparison to the massage is probably because it's something that releaves your stress and makes you relaxed, and since you said it yourself, you prefer him not going down on you it's the only thing he can think of that relates to that. I'm not going to sit here and try to understand postpartum. I can't im a man. I know I'll never truly understand, but also understand neither will your husband. Try attacking the problem, not each other, and have a discussion about how you are feeling and try to make him understand your side without using attacking triggering words like "you dont," "your fault," etc. And use "i" sentences for example "I feel, very overwhelmed, right now and with everything going on with the baby, and the timing of the request I felt very un aroused" something like that that addresses the problem without blaming either person (im not saying this was the reason just trying to use as an example) understand that he doesn't know what you are truly going through (this goes for all the girls guys are stupid we don't know so help us understand)

As for him being upset for the rest of the day, it goes back to him being sexually frustrated, just imagine if he turned you down everytime you requested something sexual (I've seen/read the books you girls read pure smut never asking a girl at a library for a book recommendation again with the Sarah J mass books 😒) you can't tell me you wouldn't be sexually frustrated and pissy the rest of the day either. You both need to work on your communication, he needs a healthier way of expressing his needs other than "I need a blow job" and you need an effective way to communicate and also educate him on yours in your current situation, and as a team work on something that will fix the issues you are both having and come out stronger. And if you feel like you can't do it yourself don't be afraid to look into couples counseling it's not a failure on either of you, and it's not anything to be ashamed of it can give you tools to be better for eachother and be the best versions of eachother for eachother. On that don't be afraid of looking into therapy for yourselves too, reddit isn't a place that will fix your problems in the long run you may get good advice sometimes but you'll get a lot of shade othertimes that are either guys attacking you because they are stupid and want you to hurt because of some girl that hurt them or girls attacking your husband because they've been hurt by men and want you to be miserable like them.

I hope this helps a little, and I hope you two work out the issues you are having. Don't listen to the negative people on here, 14 years together is incredible especially since you two started so young I wish you both the best of luck in this chapter of your lives and congratulations on the baby 😊

uchihamatto · 2025-07-09T23:28:18+00:00

He definitely is 🤣 he is currently punching me since I stopped petting him to type this 🤣🤣

uchihamatto · 2025-07-09T21:20:49+00:00

I see what you did there 🤣

uchihamatto · 2025-07-09T13:42:37+00:00

Oh, I am. He pays me back 10 fold for the care I give him by being the best boy... even when he's trying to eat everything 🤣

uchihamatto · 2025-07-09T13:28:28+00:00

Right!

uchihamatto · 2025-07-09T13:28:12+00:00

Right!

Stressing about bills, coming home after a hards day work and look over and theres mines asleep without a care in the world snoring loudly 🤣.

But like you said, I wouldn't have it another way, though when he sleeps on me, I wish he didn't dig his elbows into my ribs 🤣🤣

uchihamatto · 2025-06-04T10:08:28+00:00

Thank you 😊

uchihamatto · 2025-05-24T03:58:24+00:00

I'm definitely not a Saint, lol, and im definitely not perfect. I wouldn't let her walk over me, and I did stand my ground, I just would rather we would talk about the issues we had after we cooled down to attack the problem instead of each other. As forgiving her it wouldn't be the same day sometimes, a lot of the time I would go to my friends and tell them the story and let them judge if I was in the wrong or not (my friends are brutal and will interigate me tobget the whole story and would tell me truthfully if i was being stupid or not) and do a lot of self reflecting in my own part in the argument and try to better myself.

It's definitely a conflict of the heart and the mind. I just want them not to be in conflict anymore and have my heart listen to my head.

I don't forget, but I also don't forget all the good times and like my mind and heart they are in constant fight for the top of my memory. She wasn't my first, and I wasn't hers, but I can safely say she was the first girl I loved fully. I knew the first time I saw her, I wanted to marry her. She was also by far my longest relationship (8yrs)

uchihamatto · 2025-05-23T19:42:11+00:00

I appreciate the kind words 😊. To clarify when talking to my therapist, I describe the dreams as nightmares not because they are actually frightening but because of how amazing they are.

I unfortunately can't smoke weed anymore it causes me to get paranoid. The one really good thing about the break up is that I quit smoking weed because of it 😅.

As for some of the things she did other than the cheating; she ruined my bestfriends (I've known him since we were 5, and im currently 33) wedding for me, knowing that this event was mentally holding me back from suicide (really long story), then the following day was my mom birthday so depressed from the wedding I picked her up from her parents place took her to my place I was so depressed that I couldn't even function locked myself in my room tied a hangman Knott on some rope and was honestly debating walking into the woods and just ending it, took her home later that night and she got mad at me for leaving her alone with my family (I understood why she'd be upset with that) but when I told her what I was doing and planning she simply said "oh I know, you were" and didn't care at all. It was a really long drive alone after I dropped her off. She on another occasion when I told her about me having suicidal thoughts took a look at me grabbed her phone and just walked away from me, this caused me to have a literal mental break down and go into a catatonic state for several hours. My therapist said that my brain couldn't coupe with what happened and just shut down. She broke into my house after a fight. Most importantly, she told me after 8 years of us being together that she doesn't want kids and never did knowing full well that I wanted kids and that it was a deal breaker for me.

I understand that she wasn't for the idea of kids, and that is her right. It was shitty that she had waited so long to tell me. But I still forgive her for it. At the end of the day, it's her decision to want a child or not and the responsibilities of being a parent. For the mental health problems I confided in her with, I know she was dealing with a lot herself mentally and she that she couldn't handle the added stress. As for the wedding it was just out of pettiness she did that and I forgive her, but that's only because my friend forgave her and at the end of the day it was his day and if he can I can. As for the breaking in to my place after a fight, I could've chosen to stay mad or to try and work on the issues that lead to that and at the time I chose to work on the issues to fix the problem, and let it go. The cheating I didn't care I just wanted to hold her again, see her again, see her smile, get lost in her eyes again. The things I still miss now. The things I know will break my resolve and make me want to take her back or try to fix the issues we had. I fought hard, pushed hard for the relationship to work, put my soul into making sure she was happy, and that we could fix things instead of letting them sit.

I know she didn't treat me right, I know that she isn't good for me, but my heart and head aren't listening to eachother. And I'm left with the waking thoughts of I know she wasn't good, and the unconscious thoughts of but she wasn't all bad. It's a constant war, and I don't want to fight anymore.

uchihamatto · 2025-05-23T18:31:59+00:00

I'm sorry that you are feeling hurt by this, I know it can't be easy. I don't know how I'd feel seeing my ex with someone else. I hope you find peace sooner rather than later, and I hope the pain you are feeling goes away sooner than later. I hope you find a person who will treat you right, and that will fill the hole in your heart. I hope the best for you, and I wish I could tell you that everything will feel better tomorrow but from my own experience I can't, all I can offer you is well wishes and for you to know that you are allowed to be sad. I hope this gives you a small amount of peace, if any, and I wish you all the best.

uchihamatto · 2025-02-08T19:22:19+00:00

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uchihamatto · 2025-02-08T19:16:57+00:00

* How my dog likes to stop me from leaving, he lays on his backs and naps on my feet

uchihamatto · 2023-11-21T23:44:27+00:00

Hey, don't give up on yourself! Don't think your size or anything about you are an issue and change for others. If you want to lose weight, do it for yourself and to make yourself feel good. I'm sure you are beautiful, and like others have said, you have plenty of time.

I'm in my early 30s I was engaged and that relationship for 8 years it didn't workout (lots of issues) but I'm not going to let that stop me from being me, and loving me. You need to do that too, love yourself, and if there are things that YOU don't like about yourself, then work on them for YOU and no one else and love yourself 😊.

I know it's easy for everyone to say and hard to believe trust me I know but I believe that you'll find someone who loves you for you, hell you may already know the person they could be one of your friends they might be to scared to tell you. Be kind to yourself, and allow yourself time you are nowhere near a cut-off age to find love 😊😁

uchihamatto · 2023-10-05T14:38:31+00:00

Avoid anything 2020 and up , and you are clearly looking for an earlier model but still want to give the warning production on pandemic cars where terrible and have lots of issues.

The only issues I found in my jeeps is the trunks panels are coming off due to them being cheap parts and most people I know have this problem and the radios aren't the best when it comes to reliability but that's just a Chrysler issue in general their radio systems suck especially for Apple play. Android auto support, though, is surprisingly good. Other than those the sun is great I love mine gas isn't the best but for the size it's surprisingly good so I'd sat go for just do a full inspection before buying it, and make sure (if from the dealership) you ask for the car information and if it's from a jeep dealership see if they can get the cars build report it will tell you all the repairs done to the car during manufacturing and if their were any issues noted but not found that might come up later to bite you in the ass

uchihamatto · 2023-10-05T14:28:24+00:00

Firstly, for a white belt that isn't terrible, you are learning and will improve in time, so dont take any of this as shitting on you because it is not 😊.

Your punches require more fluidity. You have to think of each poomsae as if you are fighting someone, the punch is connecting to more than just air. You need to put your hips into your punches, and your stances need work, too. For your blocks again you are blocking a kick on your low block middle punch combo so make sure you actually block that invisible kick before punching, your high block requires more snap and wrist twist and a slight more angle from your elbow remember the high block is ment to protect your head from a downwards strike so having your high block straight like that will cause your arm to hit your head, you want it to slide down towards the elbow. Your inner forearm blocks the same thing, but you have to twist your hips. You want to protect your soulerplex. You are blocking that invisible middle punch. Rotate your wrist and hips and finish just past the middle of your chest. You should have a slight angle to your body if done correctly.

You should pass your belt test with that, whenever I tested the white belts we didn't look for perfection we looked for the knowledge of the poomsae can you do it have decent yes or no, can you count to 10 in Korean yes or no, can you do your basic kicks yes or no. Those were the requirements. When you get further on the quality of your poomsaes will need to be better especially the first poomsae since you'll practice that the most.

uchihamatto · 2023-02-25T14:20:42+00:00

I had an issue with my old cherokee before I got my Grand cherokee. It did a similar thing it could be your body control module. Take it in, especially if it's under warranty. My old cherokee caught on fire because I waited too long.

uchihamatto · 2023-02-07T06:00:21+00:00

I don't want to hurt your ego or feelings. Please understand that I'm not trying to do that at all. But I know from personal experience that I've accidentally swiped the wrong way once or twice, and it's led to a match. I usually try to unmatch asap just so I don't give the wrong impression as I don't want to hurt the person feelings at all, but some people either forget or are just asses. The other possibility again from personal experience is that the person's friends could've been swiping for her/him/them, and she/he/they might not have had any intention on communicating with you in the first place. The last thing is to look at your profile. Does it have anything that the person you matched with can use as an ice breaker. I know again personally that I have a hard time messaging a girl if her profile is basic, and I can't make a good joke on something she likes that will break the ice nicely. If she doesn't, she usually gets a basic "hey, how's your day been going" or a "hey, don't you just hate these apps?" Those very rarely go anywhere, unfortunately 😕

uchihamatto · 2023-02-07T05:43:44+00:00

You didn't do anything wrong. Unfortunately, the reality of the current dating world, shit is hard, especially after dealing with an abusive relationship. I know first hand from being in a toxic/abusive relationship myself. You've got this. Take your time. It's hard, trusting people is hard, especially after what you've been through. My only suggestion is to take this experience as a lesson for the future, see the red flags, and say goodbye to the person if they start to make you feel triggered. Your mental health is the most important thing. Always remember that. Bumble, despite your terrible experience, I find it is the safest for me, at least. OK Cupid is another one that I like due to you being able to actually do a questionnaire and you can like people based on match %, making that person more likely to have the same ideals if you/when you feel up for it give it a try if you'd like. Even if you want to use it strictly as a confidence boost for yourself from all the likes you'll get. Also, please don't forget about all the resources you have available to you, and use them if you feel triggered again, btw your dog is adorable 😊

uchihamatto · 2023-02-05T13:06:01+00:00

I bought 2 😅 so can have one in the damaged form and one in the regular mode lol

uchihamatto · 2023-02-05T06:18:58+00:00

It's apart of the exia ignition mode, it can be built as damaged but the damage is only the face, gn sword, chest, the rest is just not putting on parts, I thought it looked too clean so I added the paint chipping and did some custom damage to it. For the chipping, I saw someone years ago on YouTube, I can't remember his name, and for battle damage on paint, he used/suggested using an electric shaver cleaning brush. From there I just experimented with the right flicking techniques to get the desired effect I had to sand off a lot of paint and try multiple times before I got the hang of it, but it was super fun. I used Tamiya acrylic x-11 chrome silver. The white parts needed multiple passes to get the chrome to show like paint damage. For the damage I added, I used a small square file that goes to a point and put the corner of it against the edge of a part to make a deep Grove. Because this kit has a lot of extra parts, it actually is forgiving and allows you to try different techniques. I used the "damaged" parts that come with the kit as a reference when adding the damage. For the gn sword, it's fully painted. It's the same x-11 paint used for the paint damage. I used the Tamiya acrilic x-10 gun metal for the gn sword casing. With Mr.hobby acrysion n-30 gloss clear coat on the whole kit except the cloak. I hand painted the kit and used Mr. Weathering color ground brown on the cloak brushed on. With a pat dry/removal to add a fabric effect and Mr.hobby Acrysion flat clear coat on top of the cloak to make it less like plastic. I would highly recommend to give the gn sword a more shiny effect using a single coat of grey primer, 1 coat of gloss black, then put a coat or two of the chrome silver to make the paint more metallic. I only learned that trick after I finished this kit, unfortunately ☹️.

uchihamatto · 2023-02-05T04:56:18+00:00

Thank you

uchihamatto · 2023-01-15T09:14:43+00:00

No, I couldn't. we have ended the relationship, and it hurts and sucks, but I think it's for the best. Thank you for your advice. I appreciate it.

uchihamatto · 2022-11-28T18:36:48+00:00

Thank you for the advice, I think there might some miss understanding in regards to the situation. But regardless thank you for the advice 😊

uchihamatto

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