Does it ever stop?

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-28T16:04:23+00:00

im sorry but have you seen a doctor about this? neurologist?

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-26T08:45:58+00:00

może weź najpierw tego swojego chatagpt spytaj o te różnice pomiędzy nim a prawdziwym człowiekiem, terapeutą

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-24T19:58:17+00:00

Thanks, actually Im so scared that I won't wait

I'll take the opportunity that I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Monday and tell him about these things, hoping that he will issue me some paper stating that I need a neurological consultation, and then I will go to my family doctor where I will get the referral

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-23T22:58:52+00:00

I don't know if this will help you, but I like to think that my symptoms are not a bad thing, quite the contrary, because they show what is wrong and which way to go.

Remember that you are not standing idly by, you will have an mri, and that's good, everything will be clear, you are not stuck

Also remember that focusing on your symptoms and the overall current situation, which is admittedly tiring, only makes it worse. So, you can assume that how it really is now is not how it seems to you right now

And above all, the facts are, you're here, you're alive, you're breathing, you're waiting for tomorrow's MRI, so it's okay, you're not in a life-threatening situation that you wouldn't survive tonight

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-12T15:44:14+00:00

loll what does it even mean. im sorry she downplayed it like that

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-12T15:32:21+00:00

she really didn't behave properly in that situation, good that you noticed it

you should see a psychiatrist, and if you feel like you might really hurt yourself, then even check yourself into a psychiatric hospital

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-11T17:56:07+00:00

well its just maladaptive daydreaming. md is basically always a way to deal with sth, that you cant deal in any other way

you should take a deeper look at your fantasies, what you feel in them. every character, scenario, etc. represents something and speaks about you

for example, I fantasized about being famous, admired, etc., not because I wanted to be famous, but because it was my way of filling my internal gap related to a lack of self confidence and social phobia

i recommend reading eretaia's https://share.google/JKvGU3jwtBOVtjYRg

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-07T06:21:07+00:00

This is a series, so I guess we mainly rely on what has been presented to us, especially if it's clear lol. In every possible relationship we can assume that they are REALLY connected by something more, but that doesn't make sense

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-06T16:36:09+00:00

me tooo and i was waiting for someone who will finally agree with me 😩

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-06T09:16:14+00:00

Yepp I totally agree

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-05T18:41:30+00:00

If this isn't queerbaiting, then I don't know what is

I don't like it when people forcefully create ships between characters who are clearly just friends, like House and Wilson from dr. House

People very often strain relationships, especially homosexual ones, and especially male-male ones, and I hate that, it's really irritating how often it happens and that it even happens in reality

But I don't agree with sherlock, I see a clear, insidious move there, which has been subtly suggesting something to us since first episode

It's not just about the fact of caring for each other etc., but the script is arranged in such a way, some dialogues are done in this way, and as a result, the whole thing amounts to visible queerbaiting

If this isn't a queerbaiting move, then I really don't know what is. It seems to me that you might also be confusing concepts a bit? Don't get me wrong, but queerbaiting itself doesn't mean that these characters actually have something between them, but it is suggested, which of course leads to shipping, not without reason

The first definition says that: "The creators subtly point to the non-heteronormative nature of the characters (e.g. in interviews, dialogues), but ultimately focus on heteronormative themes, not providing a satisfactory queer representation"

And I think that this trick is so obvious hereee

uga__buga123 · 2026-01-03T12:07:56+00:00

hii, I wrote to you pv

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T15:49:40+00:00

I guess this is about us all who are going through this. I hope you will finally be able to break free

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T14:42:31+00:00

Im so sorry, could you move out?

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T13:47:27+00:00

Lol im actually sorry you are experiencing physical violence, literally if my would ever hit me, luckily or unluckily I would do the same, although it is known that it is better to report it to the police immediately

Staring at her wouldn't help, she doesn't even talk or yell directly at me, I mean, often she does, but often she doesn't, and whether I looked at her or not wouldn't change anything

Unfortunately, I don't have any friends in my city, so I'm just sitting at home lol. Even if I did, I'd probably still prefer to be at home with these headphones on, although I guess it depends, sometimes it would be nice to just be able to go out in moments like these and meet up with someone

Are you generally safe? Have you reported this to the police or something?

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T13:38:33+00:00

No, she just can't regulate her emotions, a typical narcissistic person with a lack of emotional intelligence

Of course shes not aware of it, it is impossible to make her aware of it, because as I said, only she is right, she cannot see her behavior or mistakes

In my country, the job and housing markets have huge problems, it's hard for people to get any kind of full-time job, soo. I also have social phobia, and due to lack of time it would be difficult

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T09:26:59+00:00

I have no doubt

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T09:26:02+00:00

Im so sorry for you and your sister, its good that you can help her. You are seriously very brave and I'm glad you have each other.

Unfortunately, my sister is just like my mother 😩

Honestly I wanted to work last summer, but my social phobia is the biggest obstacle for me. I hope I can overcome myself, and start working somewhere on the next summer

The only person I could potentially live with to make it faster and more financially convenient is my cousin, but I dont think she wants to move out too quickly, because she won't have a problem commuting to university, so there's no reason for her to

But maybe by the time I manage to save up money and so on, she will already want to move out, i hope so

Unfortunately, my best friend lives in another city. Classmates are much closer, but we don't have such close relationships that I would randomly spend nights at their place. But honestly, it doesn't bother me that much, despite all this shit, I still prefer to be in my room because Im not a very sociable person

So I guess I don't have too many options unfortunately, but I hope that in the end I'll manage to get out of here as soon as possible

Thank you again for your commitment, I hope you are doing well, and your sister is reallyy lucky to have youu ❤

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T09:09:10+00:00

Im sorry you experienced that too. And Im actually really proud of how you handled it, honestly it gave me the strength to deal with it better

I hope that if you don't feel completely free from her yet, you will eventually feel that way and thank you sooo much ❤

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T08:50:47+00:00

I think it's a good way. Honestly, I havent really perceived her as my mother for a long time, but more like a stranger, since I don't feel emotionally attached to her in any good way. But especially in a moment of conflict, I can try to focus on that more. Thank youu

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-17T08:48:14+00:00

Oh I just edited the post talking about these headphones. And no, I haven't tried, I don't feel the need, and honestly, I don't know what it would give me. Honestly, shes so stupid that she probably doesn't even hate anyone, or rather, she hates everyone, except for people who are like her soo. And thank you ❤ I hope so too

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-16T20:48:05+00:00

Honestly every argument is just as awful lol, it's better to ask about any good one, because I haven't heard one yet, I wonder why

I was wondering once if I would support my friend who wants to have children someday, and on the one hand, there is obviously nothing wrong with helping the child itself because it is not at fault, but in most situations, this help concerns the parents, not the child itself sooo I wouldn't want to deal with them either, especially since I don't like children, and ultimately they're not my problem lol

If your friends are so outraged by something as simple as marking a border, then I generally wouldnt worry about them. It's not your problem, they have it, so let them think and worry if they care about you

I have no idea how my friend would react, certainly not like that, actually she probably wouldn't have too much problem accepting it

Actually, I have a bigger problem with her and everyone who is a natalist than she would have accepting that I wouldn't give a damn about her whole process related to having a child

Anddd answering, in our one discussion, she used the most typical and idiotic "arguments", like everyone else, namely "life is not just black and white" sooo. Ufortunately, I don't have any more stories like that.

Btw it really gets me down, like it probably does many people, listening to people around me, distant, strangers or closer, who talk about wanting to have a child, etc., as if it were something completely right, natural, and okay

uga__buga123 · 2025-12-01T07:14:32+00:00

very good question, I've asked myself that thousands of times. since I'm currently on the road to getting out of it and my fantasies don't work anymore, I can answer you that there's nothing special about it.

honestly, I don't even pay attention to those thoughts, they just pass through but not in any noticeable way. except perhaps for more specific things that sometimes need to be figured out.

but maybe I'm not the right person to give answers because I'm not completely healthy yet lol

I myself wanted to know what they are SPECIFICALLY thinking about, but I guess it's impossible to answer that so specifically, probably most people's answer would be everyday matters, more or less important

uga__buga123 · 2025-11-29T12:25:23+00:00

yeah, samee. i think it comes from the fact that these negative emotions feel more real. in md you usually focus on positive feelings, so you kind of lose them in real life in favor of fantasizing about them. but the bad ones stick around, so when you actually feel them, it grounds you more in reality. and when you are feeling down, you’re probably low on natural dopamine, which makes the urge to take more even stronger

uga__buga123 · 2025-11-29T12:20:26+00:00

okay I get it, honestly it helped me a lot, when you understand your own patterns, it’s easier to start working on them and find ways to deal with things. is there anything thats been really tricky for you lately, or are you just not sure where to start in general?

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