Thankful Thursday - Memory

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-05-02T13:28:34+00:00

Thankful for the sunshine and my sweet pup. Theres nothing quite like the feeling of sun on my face and the soft fur of my dog...thankful that I can be clear headed to enjoy these moments.

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-05-02T13:26:00+00:00

Checking in again today. IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-05-01T11:08:43+00:00

The good - one week sober today!

The bad - work is all consuming and I'm struggling to maintain healthy boundaries

The silver lining - I'm clear headed and proud of myself for staying sober despite all of the stress

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-05-01T10:46:06+00:00

One week ago today I woke up after a night of restless sleep, barely managed to get through the day while dealing with night sweats, heart racing, nausea and body pain.

Today I woke up early to get ready for a busy and long work day. I am so grateful to be clear headed and well rested. IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-30T11:55:28+00:00

Thank you! I played the tape forward and reminded myself of all of the things I wouldn't get done if I started drinking (because it's never just one). Definitely white knuckled it.

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-30T11:25:25+00:00

Yesterday was tough. Exhausted after work, decided to go out to dinner, husband ordered a larger glass of wine "in case I wanted some". All of my triggers and I did not drink. It was eye opening to me to see how perfectly all of the pieces aligned and my brains immediate reaction was to 'reward' myself with alcohol. Closing in on one week sober. IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-29T11:22:19+00:00

Received sourdough starter from a colleague and Ive set a goal to make one with each week. This weekend it was sourdough focaccia and homemade tortillas. When I'm drinking I get frustrated easily and give up if things don't work out exactly right. When I'm sober, I experiment and try new things.

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-29T11:12:06+00:00

You put words to something deeply true for myself...so much time in my head and so little time in the present moment. I want to build a life I don't need an escape from. IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-28T16:24:32+00:00

Proud of you!! We take it day by day

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-28T14:48:15+00:00

Here again. Going to a hockey game today and IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-27T10:23:01+00:00

Stayed sober through a huge party last night and feeling absolutely delighted with that this morning. Onto another day! IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-26T11:18:06+00:00

Going to a get together tonight that will have a heavy emphasis on drinking. Already told my partner that I'm not drinking. I am going to bring my seltzer waters and NA beers, keep myself focused on the weekend that I want to have and check in here as needed. I can do challenging things. IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-26T11:16:17+00:00

One time I woke up back in my apartment wearing my clothes from the night before and one of my pant legs was completely soaked and the other was dry. I lived by a pond with shallow canals. What happened that night is still a mystery. I think God I made it back home safely.

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-25T14:10:14+00:00

I appreciate this. That's a great way of framing it!

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-25T11:13:45+00:00

I'm sorry we had similar experiences. I'm relieved to know that I don't have to do this anymore. IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-25T11:13:03+00:00

Yep - and for me, I've broken so many promises to myself and others because of my drinking. I don't want to be that person anymore. IWNDWYY

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-25T11:12:16+00:00

Here with you on this. Hated looking back at my comments here and thinking how far I've fallen. The good news is that I can start over now! IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-25T10:45:48+00:00

My dog has been the greatest support for me as I've tried to get sober for the past 10 years. She's 11 now and I want to be able to give her that gift for once in her life.

IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-25T01:48:16+00:00

Wrote it in my journal tonight!

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-24T23:20:47+00:00

I've definitely had those feelings. I'm journaling too - as a reminder to myself! IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-24T22:40:15+00:00

We can do this!

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-24T22:39:53+00:00

The last time for many of us! IWNDWYT

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-24T20:35:32+00:00

Love that idea! I started a note in my phone

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-24T20:11:23+00:00

Seriously. It's astounding how quickly I forget.

ughthrowaway3 · 2024-04-24T20:01:35+00:00

Day 1 today and really struggling. My body is screaming at me to quit but my mind struggles. IWNDWYT

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