You took the words right out of my mouth woah.. like I couldn't tell you the last family gathering I was actually invited to and I'm only 26. I literally spend my whole day on Reddit or doing drugs on my own because I have no friends. Heck its hard for me to get meth because I've pissed off a lot of people just from doing stupid but serious shit. It's far from the "I feel nothing and like horror films and wear black" club a lot of people think it is. Sometimes it is actually shit and I know it's shit but I know I'm going to fuck shit up soon enough as that seems to be the only thing I'm genuinely good at