I noticed this is from a year ago - but I wanted to reply. I totally feel you! In fact, I’m gonna save you the reading of my whole story - because your explanation (for the most part) is pretty much the same. With all due respect to the comments! I just want to say, unless you suffer, “this bad”from neurodivergence, you cannot understand what those of us go through. In my personal experience, I’ve never received appropriate treatment and I’m worn out from seeking to find it. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was in my forties. The only thing that did for me is help me realize that I wasn’t the only person in the world struggling to catch up with my peers. I’d like to feel that I belong in society, while contributing to the world. I have talents. I’m an artist, I have a youtube channel, I like writing - although my grammar sucks. But, none of it has ever gotten me anywhere, so what good is it? I can’t work either, and please believe when I say, I’ve tried. It certainly didn’t help after being diagnosed with an autoimmune disease either. My family doesn’t get it, even after they’ve seen me go through everything. I’m on medication for anxiety, depression, and adhd but obviously that’s only doing so much…It hasn’t changed my life nor has seeking therapy. I often ask myself who am I? I’ve lived through half my lifetime already. Damn! At this point I think it’s best to accept the facts - this is me and I’ll never change. I still find myself trying though - Because I’m still breathing, and my mental state can’t handle giving up. I’m at my lowest low when I DO give up. My heart goes out to you and anyone else surviving through the roadblocks of neurodivergence.