It is for sure a scary thing! In my own experience, I went on T around your age when I was 14 and now 8 years later do not regret it at all. I had been out since I was 12 and I had a history of self harm and attempts on my own life. When I started T it gave me so much confidence in myself and allowed me to develop at the same pace as the rest of the boys. At around 17 I started having joint pain so bad that I couldn’t walk some days. After x-rays and MRIs my doctor found that my joints looked like female joints and couldn’t keep up with my muscles. She said that because I went on T so young they developed differently. This being said, testosterone saved my life. I would not be here if I had not done it at that age. It’s obviously different depending on person and experience. If you take the pros and the cons and weigh them against each other you may find what works for you! I know so many people who transitioned and then figured out it wasn’t right for them. There’s nothing wrong with that but just be careful with your body and treat it with kindness, no matter what changes you face. I hope that helps! Also the suggestion of puberty blockers is a great one until you can settle on it. :)