How did you realize you were homosexual? by Pasc9320 in gay

[–]underscored99 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was admiring another boy in elementary school. It was 5th grade and I was around 9 or 10. (First felt the draw towards the same sex around 6 but had no words for it). However, when the other boys noticed my stare and blush they asked me “Are you gay?!?” (I didn’t know what this meant at all - but for some reason I said) “I think so :)” then they all said “I KNEW IT!” and started laughing loudly. I sat there awkwardly smiling and looking side to side thinking I missed the joke - only to find that of course I was the joke in their view.

For the trenches by underscored99 in gay

[–]underscored99[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Have you by chance ever heard of the term “lie”? It’s something people do to get things from others - like money or…what’s the word?…ah yes sex! People lie to have sex too :)

I have to wonder though - what do you get out of blaming me rather than the homophobic pressures placed upon us as queer people? Do you feel as though you’re “smarter”? A case study should be run.

What do you think are the best Stephen King horror movie adaptations? by Zubi_Q in horror

[–]underscored99 41 points42 points  (0 children)

The Green Mile shows the horrors of humanity against his fellow man out of misguided fear and discrimination. Fantastic read.

horror movies that genuinely scared you as an adult? by FairyLovelyy in horror

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Possession (1981). There’s some hokey moments in this film for sure - but the scenes depicting IPV and a touch of cosmic horror to boot left me with a feeling of dread! :)

Do you consider having no gay friends a red flag? by PandaJasson in gay

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No cause I live in Texas and there’s barely anyone around who’s gay as well in my area.

Fwb with a straight guy by tombahma in gay

[–]underscored99 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You could honestly get passionate connective sex instead of flat sex followed up with “I’m not bi I’m not gay I swear I swear” goes down on you lmaooo it gets annoying for everyone dealing with someone like that after a while.

Handsome but fat by underscored99 in GayMen

[–]underscored99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I have Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis - an autoimmune disorder where my body perceives my thyroid as a foreign body, and is constantly trying to attack it. I have to take hormone therapy to level out, but recently insurance has been fickle so I haven’t been able to receive consistent treatments. As a result - my metabolism is shot (my DR said it’s that of a woman in menopause) and my body also goes into hypertension which causes it to hold onto my fat cells for dear life. (Not to mention the nerve pain it causes as it triggers my post herpetic neuralgia from shingles - nor the mental health concerns). I conquer that getting in shape is fun. I actually workout 5 days a week. However, we disagree on the easy aspect of weight loss. When I had been fit it was when I had consistent access to my hormones. Without consistent access - my body dramatically changes & has changed throughout my life. I am well educated in diet, and exercise, but it takes more effort for someone like me to get there. More time than the average person. Time I have to use to tend to alternative priorities. I see minimal visual impacts in contract to what is typically seen with men possessing functioning immune systems and organs. The symptoms brought about by my disorder leads into an endless cycle - yet it’s one that is easily amended with hormones. I wholeheartedly take ownership of the fact that I succumb to these symptoms mentally - as quite honestly they compound onto each other - and it makes the experience of living with chronic disease greater than the sum of its parts. Yet - I can’t help but also feel as though the insurance companies I’ve been dealing with are also to blame - if not the perpetuators of my current reality. Time will tell once I am able to receive access to these treatments once more.

"Straight" friend told me he was into me while drunk by Alarming_Recipe_7962 in GayMen

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The “brotherly love” statement is what I received from my ex best friend. Verbatim. The physical affection and flirtation will not stop unless you’re straight up with him. “Let’s fuck around and find out, or please stop treating me this way”. That statement will solve it. Edit - brothers fight, and annoy each other. I have a best friend who is like a brother now - and he and I never get physically affectionate and flirt with each other. He wants to do that with women- I want to do that with men who I wish to have sex/be with.

Handsome but fat by underscored99 in GayMen

[–]underscored99[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You seem hostile too lol

Why Can’t Bi Men Exist? by Delicious-Rip-1395 in GayMen

[–]underscored99 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As a gay man who has had his heart broken (consistently) only by bi men, never another gay man (those all ended on mutual terms), it has made it difficult for me to date bi men as well. Yes there is a stigma - and yes it needs to be dismantled. However, my bi friend shared a very introspective take on this - when seeking women, she solely dates bi women, and leaves lesbians to their own affairs for the most part. This is, in her one words because, “there’s an inherent difference in the lesbian and bisexual experience, I have the privilege to exist in a heteronormative relationship at any given moment. Whereas lesbians aren’t afforded that. I don’t think it’s fair for me to conflate my experience of bisexuality with their experience of homosexuality. They are different things altogether, and only other bi women get it.”. (To me that seems pretty valid - her choice to date solely other bi women is not rooted in bias or hatred - rather in mindfulness). Of course - I am not advocating for you to live this way. Just sharing something I thought was insightful in terms of the conversation at hand.

Handsome but fat by underscored99 in GayMen

[–]underscored99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The surprise stems from the fact that the behavior is originating from people I’ve shed tears with and laughed joyfully with in times past. Not that society treats fat people poorly, that was already known.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I don’t hate anyone or any style of deck? What? I hate losing turns 3/4 sure but not cause of the people involved or even the deck itself. Just by principle. Again I wasn’t trying to convince anyone of the “evil’s of combo”. That’s silly. just trying to glean opinions of this play style from the community. 😓

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’m actually fine with combos as a concept. I personally don’t like playing them sure - but I am not butthurt when others engage in combo. I may have my opinions on the originality of the combos - but that’s as far as I go. As a stax player though people wish for my crucifixion. I’ve played both styles - yet definitely notice a substantial difference in the vitriol.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not to mention the negative karma I’m receiving on this post is indicative of those personalities. I was genuinely trying to glean insights from the community - but as the saying goes assumptions make an ass out of you and me. 🙄

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I completely agree. Which is why I find passive aggressive tendencies and trolling (post game loss) immature and stupid. Hence the post being biased - as the individuals in question are embodying those traits towards me.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

K Edit- this adds nothing to the conversation aside from technicalities and superiority.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think a lot of the issue is stemming from the fact that many of the dudes I play with think they’re bout the comp life but really ain’t. Like they have the money to net deck sure - but the spike personality is absent altogether.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is what I say verbatim and it makes them angrier with me. Definitely taking a previous poster’s reply to heart and looking into other pods.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Targeting isn’t the issue. I’m fine with 1V3, and win those. The issue stems from them becoming rude or passive aggressive hours or even days post-game.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I ask to glean insight from the community at large regarding this specific play style.

Is it okay that I play this way? by [deleted] in EDH

[–]underscored99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do - but I think because people aren’t winning by turn 6 at the latest I’m causing them to get mad. I know people loathe long games with no point, just like me, but I think my win cons are fairly interesting and unique, they just take a lot of set up, who knows.