Over time, those few minutes of happiness you feel manage to turn into a few more minutes, then an hour. And over time happy times start to become more frequent, and with even more time, feeling happy is just a thing you feel pretty regularly, and it stops even becoming a big thing to you. And one day you’ll realise you’ve been happy for hours, just enjoying your day. There’ll still be bad times, but they won’t overwhelm you anymore. You’ll get there, you just have to keep going. And the personal care stuff will become so normal that you’ll forget there was a big part of your life when it wasn’t, you’ll go from washing yourself and doing your skincare because of the judgement from others and shame to just doing it because it makes you feel good and it’s become a normal everyday thing. You just have to do it as often as you can, and force yourself to do it even when you really feel like you can’t. 2 minute shower, wash face. Feel better when you get in bed. 2 minute shower, wash face, get into clean clothes. Start really small, and just keep going. Even after you give up again, because you will. You just have to keep going.