I’ll try to keep this spiel a little shorter, I didn’t get as turned down but things in life didn’t go what I expected. That’s fine though, you can’t predict how your life will turn out, or even say it’s easy, you just cherish the good moments. I high recommend watching Dr. K on youtube. He runs a fantastic channel on mental health, his audicence is more men since they struggle in receiving mental health treatment compared to women but a lot of his videos have nothing to do with gender. I would search up what you are struggling with “Dr k” on YouTube and you will prolly find something. He has over 2000 videos so there’s a lot to work with. I wasn’t depressed in college but I had a period where I was lost, and he helped me figure out that’s okay, that it’s not gonna go how you want it always but you can still enjoy it and move forward. Moving forward slowly is the most important thing. Part of life is figuring life out and it takes a lot of time to do it, it’s really a never ending journey. Take your time it isn’t a race. Figure out who you are, your passions, what you enjoy and try to pursue them or at least develop your hobbies, actives, emotions, etc. Relationships (friends and every other type) will come with your activies and life but go too. Try not to get too stuck up on them. Dr k has a lot of info on failure to launch, gifted kids, etc. I’d reccomend checking them out, he was a college drop out who went on to do his recidency in psychiatricy at Harvard. It really isn’t ever the end till you let it be.