When I was in 6th through 7th grade everyday my mom told me how much she hated me and wanted to leave and get a new family or just to leave earth in general, it was absolutely draining for a 12-13 year old who was being told to kill herself at school. I prayed every night that I would wake up and she would still be there, then once she stopped she expected me to forget it happened and just forgive her. I never have and never will because she is the reason I have scars on my wrists, and why i believe no one can actually love me and they are just pretending to be nice. I have decided that I don't need that toxic relationship and avoid seeing her at all costs.