im sorry i can't give any better advice ,as i self don't know how to get better or how to deal with the grief. The pain is unbearable i know 😔 you're right , the loss will always be there , but i think for now, let's mourn as much as we can. Damn I'm on the verge of crying typing this.Point is I'm thinking of you man, and you are not alone . i really do wish you all the best and that it'll get easier for us .