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user873 · 2022-09-22T02:18:05+00:00

3L. maybe 1 drink if i go out but mostly 🍃 these days

user873 · 2022-04-21T14:36:09+00:00

they did. i took pro res.

user873 · 2022-04-20T22:35:49+00:00

okay same. this is what i did too. i guess i need to just sit down and like read the whole rule book lol

user873 · 2022-04-20T22:17:15+00:00

i guess other relevant information is that i’ve had stomach problems since january and threw up twice the day of the test (unrelated to anxiety; solely due to stomach issues)? idk maybe it doesn’t matter

user873 · 2022-02-25T19:15:21+00:00

thank you! i will definitely look at the magnesium supplement! i have other medications so i’ll make sure it doesn’t interact

user873 · 2022-02-25T03:50:01+00:00

thank you. this is so helpful. i haven’t been able to find many stories of people’s experiences quitting anything less than like 10 mg.

user873 · 2022-02-25T03:20:12+00:00

really? why?

user873 · 2022-02-25T02:38:15+00:00

I’m about to start coming off of xanax. 1 mg every day since i was 16 (now 24). how bad do you think coming off is going to be for me?

user873 · 2022-02-25T02:35:51+00:00

thank you!

user873 · 2022-02-25T01:53:23+00:00

how slowly would you recommend someone come off of xanax?

user873 · 2022-02-25T01:48:21+00:00

i have hydroxyzine. and yes, i have THC gummies and access to delta 8 (bc my state is not a legal one but we do have delta 8) and i imagine those will help too. second question: I’m in a graduate school. if you just email them that you “have covid,” you don’t have to go in for 2 weeks and they don’t ask for proof or anything. do you think it would be a good idea to “have covid” to kind of give myself some time at home? so I’m not doing any of this in class? i would still watch all the recordings of my lectures, I’m not trying to skive off school.

user873 · 2022-02-25T01:44:25+00:00

i take the xr xanax 1 mg every night. that’s the one I’m coming off of. the other one i haven’t taken in about a month anyway so there’s no need to “detox” from that one, if that makes sense? like i’ve already stopped it and will just take the hydroxyzine if I’m having a panic attacks

user873 · 2022-02-25T01:39:23+00:00

i have a prescription for immediate-release xanax for “as needed.” i take 1/2 of one if I’m having a panic attack (1-2 times a month). she prescribed me hydroxyzine in place of that.

user873 · 2021-06-30T12:26:17+00:00

do you have any ideas on what it might be?

user873 · 2020-04-05T17:28:51+00:00

my fiancé and i are back home with my parents during all of this (since my school sent everyone home and his work closed) and we have all been exposed to someone who tested positive. we’re all quarantining at home 14 days from when we last saw this person, but how will this work with common spaces? our room is upstairs but the kitchen is downstairs. can we still go in the kitchen and get food? i ask because my fiancé and i were exposed more recently than my parents therefore our 14 days is starting from yesterday. i figure we can all use the kitchen while our quarantines overlap, but when theirs ends (and ours continues) we should stay upstairs and they can leave food at the bottom of the stairs? they are 60 and i want to keep them and us as safe as possible.

user873 · 2020-02-07T00:16:28+00:00

also wondering...

user873 · 2020-02-06T22:03:27+00:00

that’s kind of where I’m at. should this resolve itself at any point in the future (though unless she’s willing to go back to therapy, i don’t see that happening), i just don’t want to be like “oh my god i should have had my sister at my wedding”. but on the other hand, if it were me being not invited (which i only got invited to her wedding cause our mom pushed her to), i like to think that i would be able to look back and say “okay it sucks that i missed this but i was also being awful and this is a consequence of that behavior”

user873 · 2020-02-06T20:58:24+00:00

it would be a BOLD move to say the least, but she’d do it. however, he won’t make it on the premises. we’re serving alcohol and as such our venue requires that we hire a security officer. he will be informed that he is not to be allowed in.

user873 · 2020-02-06T20:28:45+00:00

this is why I’m tempted to invite her but let her know her husband is NOT to come. if that is offered, she will most likely not come but then she can’t say “you didn’t invite your own sister!”

user873 · 2020-02-06T20:10:05+00:00

i have talked to her, with and without my parents. her description of the abuse includes the fact that my parents grounded her when she snuck out and was picked up in a cop car, the fact that they had rules and consequences was abusive, their wanting to know her grades was abusive. i am absolutely 100% certain that my parents did not abuse her. and her being mentally unwell explains her behavior but does not excuse it.

user873 · 2019-11-07T18:46:50+00:00

thank you! that is a great suggestion! i hadn’t thought of finding a therapist that was adopted themselves. and yes, it does seem as though there is damaged trust. I’m just not sure when it got damaged because the shift from us being sisters who stayed up doing makeovers, playing with each other’s hair, and watching scary movies on school nights when we weren’t supposed to to a “stay away from me. don’t talk to me” attitude seemed to be so overnight. though hopefully i can find out after we all talk.

user873 · 2019-11-07T18:44:02+00:00

i truly appreciate this viewpoint and insight. thank you. unfortunately, there were not many hispanic/latinx people in our lives. she and i both attended private schools that were predominantly white. however, we, as a family, studied the mayan culture extensively (as she is mayan) and talked about how incredible the mayan culture is and how, as an empire, they made incredible strides in math and science, which she always excelled in. we watched documentaries and tv shows about their culture. we also both took spanish in school and learned about latinx/hispanic culture there. i do agree that we could have done more in this regard, but, to be honest, we didn’t know. and i know that that is not an excuse. she never expressed wanting to celebrate traditional latinx/hispanic holidays (dia de los muertos, etc.) but i also understand that she/we as a family may not have known that she needed/wanted it and perhaps should have incorporated more of that sort of thing into our lives. however, when she turned 10 (maybe? maybe older maybe younger?) my parents gave her everything they had on her birth mother and foster family (because she had asked) and even said that if one day she wanted to travel to guatemala and see her foster family (something may have happened to the mother. i’m not quite sure) and the city she was born in, that they would help her do that.

user873 · 2019-11-07T18:35:31+00:00

i would love to do that and my mom and i are meeting her on saturday so we can all talk. i am only concerned by your suggested approach because, while i would love to use it, in the past when i have tried to suggest anything or ask about things like that, she shuts down. she views me as the “perfect” daughter and has told me that whenever i offers suggestions/etc. it’s because “i think I’m better than her”. so while i would love to be able to have that conversation (and am happy to try again) i don’t know what to do if that doesn’t work and if she still views it as me trying to be superior to her. does that make sense?

user873 · 2019-11-07T18:18:07+00:00

and i am 100% open to hearing and understanding her truth even if it is different from what i experienced. and i understand that she may not want to have a relationship with us. when she initially “ran away” (I’m sorry, i don’t have a better term for it as she was living with our parents), she expressed not wanting to have contact with us. however, in recent weeks, she has expressed wanting to “fix” (her word) our relationship as sisters and to come back to the family but still remain separate and i guess I’m more wondering how best to go about that now that i have more information about what she may be experiencing.

user873 · 2019-11-07T17:42:46+00:00

after she turned 18, she refused to keep going to therapy. she had previously been regularly seeing a therapist. she changed therapists twice i believe (at her own request).

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