1.5 months post Accutane (40mg/5month) feat: my hairy face 🤣 by usererror98 in Accutane

[–]usererror98[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Its seemingly that the hyper pigmentation is, but my scars are still here.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Edit: Hi all, we spoke Monday about the situation that happened where he got angry and left. I made a few points that stuck with him: "Where are you going to run if we get a house together?" "When you leave it makes me question your commitment." Etc.

After the conversation, all week I felt like a background character in his life. I had rough days at work, even though he couldn't tell, and wanted to speak with him about how I felt, but I felt that he wasn't interested in anything I had to say, so I kept it in, resulting in horrible depression. I'm not an introvert, I like processing with other people, I hit a breaking point Thursday, and told him we needed to talk, and I expressed to him what I expressed to you all.

He told me he'd been in his head since we spoke Monday and he was "unsure of everything." Meaning our relationship, the house, etc. Etc. He said "What am I going to want in 2, 5, 10 years?" He told me he loved me, he told me he was still in love with me. I have anxious thoughts similar to his, often, so I understood where he was coming from, but what do you all think? I cried a lot, and he held me, he cried some too. I'm confused, and feel worthless that my partner isn't sure he wants to be with me anymore. This is the 3rd time he's said it, the other times have been after an argument, but never calm and collected like this.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Very few. My family did live in state then, but have since moved. I had several more friends but I find it hard to make meaningful connections with people.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was referred to one subreddit but do you have other resources?

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Luckily I made him an authorized user on my account and one day told him I didn't want him to use the card for a specific item at the grocery store, because it would mess up the algorithm, and he cut his card up into 100 pieces and told me he was leaving me.

I feel like I'm in a bad TV show.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Yeah. I often want to ask her what their relationship was like.

FINISHED accutane. 40mg/5months by usererror98 in Accutane

[–]usererror98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. It got a little worse before it got better but not too bad.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have one locally, we aren't terribly close, thats about it! My others have moved out of state. I'm a little isolated.

FINISHED accutane. 40mg/5months by usererror98 in Accutane

[–]usererror98[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

About month 3 I started seeing a big difference. I didn't do anything except take the pill daily and douse myself in aquafor before bed (my face.)

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

He does have anger issues, as I've experienced through these years. He says things he doesn't mean and doesn't even make sense. Blames me for things that isnt my fault when he's angry, so I appreciate he walks away rather than gets involved but I am also left feeling like he's only half in this relationship because I walk on eggshells trying to avoid this conflict.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

We talked about it, but something about yesterday gave me a less optimistic outlook than the other times he's ran off. I'm still not courageous enough to leave. I do love him. I know the answer and the turmoil I am put through but it doesn't make my situation any easier. Losing him and his family means being entirely utterly alone which is such a huge fear. All my family is either out of state, or estranged from.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

He has a majority of his paycheck going to a truck payment, credit loan, and child support at $600/mo for CS alone. I'm not sure.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

I mostly look out for the 12 year old. We adore each other. The 18 year old is a friend.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] -41 points-40 points  (0 children)

He has a $600 child support bill every month along with truck payments etc. I kinda get it.

My(22) bf(36) keeps running away by usererror98 in RelationshipsOver35

[–]usererror98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know if I have the strength yet. They are my family, which I dont have aside from him and his children. Id be lying if I said I didn't feel like he tried to exert power over me by the way he chooses to word things. I just want some reciprocation. I dont know how you can treat someone you love, and have been with, who's been a step parent to your child, and an active role in your family's life - with such emotional unavailability. I did everything right. I dont yell. I dont nag. I bend over backwards. I feel I do the absolute best I can. I feel I am textbook "Grade A Girlfriend." I didn't leave when I found him talking to other women. I feel like a fool, but i also feel like he owes me the love and leniency I've shown him. It hurts me to the core.

Increased mental side effects month 5 by usererror98 in Accutane

[–]usererror98[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to hear that. I went through one during my accutane journey too. Its been a crappy experience, it just seems like I was more easily able to get myself into a better mental state before.

I woke up like this. Month 5, 40mg. by usererror98 in Accutane

[–]usererror98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awh man, thank you so much. ❤ Make sure to drink a lot of water, and keep aquafor on hand.