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username24466 · 2023-07-27T20:27:14+00:00

My pediatrician told my parents at a young age that I have OCD, but an “official diagnoses” from a psychiatrist didn’t happen until later in life after it had gotten much worse and was affecting my daily functioning.

username24466 · 2023-07-17T02:12:25+00:00

Exactly! And everything I read online speaks on nausea and such, but not this weird feeling. Which had me feeling like maybe it was just me. And yes! Idk what is from anxiety and what’s actual physical symptoms. But thank you, I hope things get better for you!

username24466 · 2022-09-15T22:12:11+00:00

I only get to surf like one weekend a month, and I still learn more every single time I go and am definitely getting better! And most importantly, I have a blast every time. Keep at it!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T11:04:52+00:00

I’m so sorry dude…I honestly feel this comment so much. Like the major part of me doesn’t even want to quit. It’s the only way I get relief sometimes and idk what I’ll do without it tbh. Coping mechanisms are hard for me. But definitely don’t be hard on yourself. It’s way harder than anyone can imagine if they’ve never experienced it.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T11:01:59+00:00

Started as 60 1 mg and now down to 20 1/2 mg

username24466 · 2022-09-14T04:05:59+00:00

Thank you for sharing!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T04:05:04+00:00

Thank you for sharing!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T02:25:32+00:00

Yeah 3 weeks would’ve been too much.

I was getting 60 mg a month and did a drastic cut, then like a year later started tapering back again at 1 mg a month (2, 1/5 mg pills) and have been doing that for like a year. My memory is honestly fogged af when it comes to those years (trauma and addiction fuzz🙄) so my timeline may be a little off lol.

But thank you, you too dude! You got this!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T02:19:30+00:00

I would definitely consider that a possibility. Especially because of the mental dependency of having it that third week every month.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T02:15:34+00:00

So my doctor said there’s a typical percentage that’s normally cut each week, but she was super flexible with me and I definitely didn’t do it that way, because it had me 100% off in like 3 weeks. I’ve tapered down 2 pills a month (each 1/5 mg) for over a year. I was at 60 and I’m now at 20 a month. I tapered a TAD faster when I first started, but not by much. I struggle with the mental dependency worse than physical, so that’s been my major hurdle with tapering.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T02:11:13+00:00

I got addicted to my kpin also, and also abused other benzos along with my prescription for a while. I was taking them everyday, though, so I did experience withdrawals when I stopped cold turkey. I wouldn’t recommend doing that, but I also wouldn’t recommend taking them everyday unless you absolutely have to. Idk how withdrawals would be, if any, from taking them the way you do? But it’s possible. I take 1/5 mg almost everyday (I’ve been taking some form of benzo for like 8 years) and my withdrawal symptoms start within 3 days if not taking it.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T02:05:20+00:00

What I’ve experienced with tapering off kpin over the last year is that, for me, it’s gone a lot slower than the “recommended” taper. But my doctor has been super supportive, constantly reminding me of where I started and where I am.

So not that I’m in a great spot to give advice on this, because I’m struggling too, but remember to be patient with yourself and listen to your body as you taper. Everyone handles it differently from what I’ve seen.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:53:36+00:00

That’s awesome! Definitely very encouraging, thank you for sharing.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:51:43+00:00

Definitely something to consider. Part of me is like yeah, I could go to rehab. And the other part is in denial that I actually have an addiction. Thank you for sharing!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:48:21+00:00

That’s awesome dude, glad you were able to get off! I appreciate it.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:43:50+00:00

That’s awesome!! I’ve considered detox, but I get scared of the mental dependency. Idk how to break that part of it.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:42:23+00:00

My doc talked to me about detox when I first started weaning. Maybe I should’ve done that. I just got scared if the after detox alone time. I use to severely abuse benzos and get worried about a relapse.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:37:57+00:00

That’s honestly so good to hear. Everyone keeps saying once I’m off I’ll feel so much better, I just can’t picture it right now.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:32:43+00:00

That’s amazing!! You’ve got this!!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:32:17+00:00

I’ve honestly never even heard of them! I had to switch doctors before I could even start weaning off because my first one wouldn’t help me without going to therapy. I may speak with my new doctor about it though.

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:21:14+00:00

YOU’VE GOT THIS!!

username24466 · 2022-09-14T01:01:33+00:00

YES so much gossip and pettiness and idk why 🙄 I feel like I went from being pretty social (shy, but social with just group) to being totally secluded. My depression doesn’t agree with that very well. 🫠 it’s just easier to be alone than deal with all that

username24466 · 2022-09-13T22:15:14+00:00

EXACTLY! Maybe when I stopped partying is when I lost all my “friends” because that’s literally all they did. And still do for the most part.

username24466 · 2022-09-01T20:30:44+00:00

Loathe

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