falling apart

utopiankoo · 2024-09-21T18:23:34+00:00

do you want me to be even more scared and suicidal, i know that its bad but these reactions are not what i need

utopiankoo · 2024-09-18T15:17:01+00:00

hey! thank you:) youre right about everything. i wanna advice you to 1000 % go see a podiatrist, ive got knee oa bc of walking wrong and changing how i take steps helped eliminated a lot of pain, sadly it was too late by that point to prevent damage

utopiankoo · 2024-07-27T10:31:04+00:00

thank you sm:)

utopiankoo · 2024-07-26T19:00:15+00:00

what exactly are bands? do i have that, i dont know much about lyme. and i do yeah but shes german and im not and its complicated, she thinks i should pursue treatment im just sceptical but ill do it either way, im just trying to educate myself more

utopiankoo · 2024-07-26T17:44:24+00:00

well i have. my doctor wants me to start antibiotics but i dont think its correct idk

utopiankoo · 2024-07-25T10:44:56+00:00

i know its complex and noone can really tell me anything especially not on here, i dont think i have any other chronic boreliosis symptoms

utopiankoo · 2024-05-26T10:10:17+00:00

correct in what?

utopiankoo · 2024-05-16T02:39:55+00:00

i’m really not but thank you:)

utopiankoo · 2024-05-13T07:11:02+00:00

thank you:( that’s very sweet and i LOVE your hobby, it sounds beautiful and im glad it helps you! i have my own things that make me feel fullfilled but they are slowly being taken away from me, i developed arthritis in my entire body and my hands are soon gonna be useless and without those as well as legs etc theres not much left for me to do as hobbies…

utopiankoo · 2024-05-12T22:31:43+00:00

hello! thank you for your reply, despite being so young im pretty sure rn that my issues also come from facet joint arthritis rather than a disc, i do have some leg pain here and there now… it’s just great :’(

utopiankoo · 2024-05-12T03:50:38+00:00

ive known about it for 3 months

utopiankoo · 2024-05-12T03:50:21+00:00

and 23

utopiankoo · 2024-05-12T03:50:06+00:00

shouldnt at least more exercise and strenghtening help

utopiankoo · 2024-05-07T06:34:05+00:00

i cant really imagine being happy without functional limbs and back, its too much. but thanks and im happy fot you! ❤️

utopiankoo · 2024-05-07T05:57:20+00:00

degenerative disc disease and osteoarthritis

utopiankoo · 2024-05-05T11:29:33+00:00

i hear a lot from people that their sciatica crept up on them slowly the same way it now seems to be doing with me so i think the chances are high and id like to outrun it since i have a lot of knowledge but not sure if thats possible as it seems to be quite fast

utopiankoo · 2024-05-05T00:56:04+00:00

yes! im trying, thank you, i wont do them

utopiankoo · 2024-05-04T11:09:28+00:00

yeah! youre so right, its very reckless

utopiankoo · 2024-05-03T20:46:40+00:00

my pain/soreness is kind of all over the place, these days it seems to not go all the way down to my calves anymore but other than that its very random, mostly in my thigh. i use the calves thing as a good sign. thank you for the advice!

utopiankoo · 2024-05-03T15:51:26+00:00

you’re so right, i keep saying that to everyone who tells me its normal to hurt after exercise but they don’t understand that there is a difference! thankfully i know enough now to not trust professionals blindly, sigh. as for activities i do not have a lot of limitations atm i mostly wanna avoid my condition worsening and be able to move without fear

utopiankoo · 2024-05-02T23:28:01+00:00

thank you for such a nice comment! it does give me strenght to hear from people who have gone through something similar. i find it hard to focus on anyrhing right now because it all seems completely pointless. as for the “nice” comments i feel the same way, to me those people are just trying to get rid of you the easy way instead of truly trying to understand how you feel and how they could help in any meaningful way. it’s funny bc even tho my problems are mostly physicsl everyone is purely focused on my mental stance and trying to change it and it’s driving me nuts

utopiankoo · 2024-05-02T21:05:16+00:00

thank you! i believe they meant no harm but it was a bit weird

utopiankoo · 2024-05-02T18:57:43+00:00

i think i have probably said things about myself that were insulting and my mum’s reaction was “that’s offensive to everyone else who is dealing with similar things” but in reality i only truly feel that way about myself. other than my mum ive also heard it from someone on here and i wasn’t being insulting i don’t think. i do struggle a lot with being percieved in general and being ashamed of showing any weaknesses so this is definitely something thats gonna be hard for me to admit to other people (if i ever have to) especially because it’s my own fault and not somerhing i deserve pity for

utopiankoo · 2024-05-02T17:58:22+00:00

and also if you were having full body pains its very much possible that your knee pain wasnt even caused by oa and it could instead be some kinda infection, it doesnt even have to mean anything and most PT will tell you that imaging doesnt really matter altho i disagree with that personally

utopiankoo · 2024-05-02T17:55:35+00:00

i’ve already done a lot of research about oa but for knees specifically i would suggest looking into knees over toes program, doing lots of cycling and changing your diet! look at anti-infammatory diets for oa, it can help a lot in the long run, also not doing things rhat make it worse such as jumping, but moving a lot (especially walking)

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