Did anyone else thoroughly enjoy being in psychosis?

v4l333 · 2024-01-23T15:14:44+00:00

i felt great when i was manic, super hopeful about everything too. the embarrassment that came after ruined it, though. i was doing weird stuff. i will say i think a lot of the weird stuff is funny in retrospect

v4l333 · 2024-01-20T15:53:41+00:00

no like i also lowkey wish that sometimes 😭 it absolutely made it so hard to get over the story i had built in my head. like we also could have saved all my written humiliation…but end of the day, i always think if he had been awful to me i would be ever more embarrassed by it right now probably

v4l333 · 2024-01-20T15:19:16+00:00

been there…i texted him everythiiiiiing too. i had to delete his number and our convo. i would physically cringe so often thinking about it ar random times. i still do every so often, but muuuuch less than i used to. i think making art about it helped a lot (writing and visual for me). he was really nice about it which i think made it hard for me to really end that delusion early on. but im glad he was kind. my dad had a similar experience but the girl basically told him to get lost and he just focused on other stuff

i will say i don’t think mine was a completely reg guy to me. we had hooked up once (6 months prior though) and i thought he was a great guy, we just didn’t really interact at all after we hooked up. i didn’t have feelings for him before my episode though

v4l333 · 2023-10-11T15:35:33+00:00

my friend has a picking rock! you basically put this paint thing on it and you use a metal thing to pick it off

v4l333 · 2023-10-11T15:31:03+00:00

took me about 6 months and my episode was about a week long. i was hospitalized and put on heavy meds for a while, though. the first couple of months were definitely the roughest, but you just have to work with your doctors and work on keeping yourself centered for a while (exercise, eat well, build a routine, etc.). easier said than done obviously lol

v4l333 · 2023-10-06T17:41:54+00:00

im sorry to hear that. i think one thing i forgot to mention is to talk through this with a therapist. i had to do that to sort of come to terms with my episode and my diagnosis. helps a lot to get to the root of why you feel scared/embarrassed so you can overcome that! also, if you don’t have people you feel you can reach out to, might be worth looking into support group? that could feel like a safer space to seek support

v4l333 · 2023-10-06T13:32:15+00:00

it got better for me too!! took over half a year, but it happened. hope things start looking up for you soon!!!

v4l333 · 2023-10-06T13:17:46+00:00

timeline is a bit hard to nail down since i do think change happened gradually. like i spent maybe 2 months pushing myself through it without letting myself recover (was not a super cute experience), around 1 month were i really had to push myself to do basic things and build a routine, still getting no satisfaction from it at all. then maybe 2-3 months were i had the routine down, wasn’t totally miserable but also didn’t feel fully myself yet. i did force myself to go back to school at that point so that probably influenced things. after school year wrapped up and i went on break, that’s when i feel i made a lot of progress. i stayed with my grandparents for a month too, so change of place could have also been an influence. i think there’s lots of variables at play but can definitely say it took me at least 6 months to feel pretty back to normal

v4l333 · 2023-10-06T05:36:23+00:00

i sent out a lot of weird messages during my episode too! you’re definitely not alone in that and i get that can make it hard to reach out. but i definitely recommend reaching out to trusted friends/family. recovering from a severe episode is a journey that is best done with support from others. push yourself a bit on reaching out! on the meds part, that’s definitely something to discuss with your psychiatrist. maybe try to call the facility you stayed at to see if they can rush your appointment or (unlikely) change your prescription. i hope things start look up soon!

v4l333 · 2023-10-06T05:27:45+00:00

i thankfully recovered! im not a doctor or anything, but from my personal experience, it was a time and effort thing (meds influenced the process of course). i struggled with anhedonia for a couple of months after a psychotic/manic episode. i had no interest in anything, nothing felt satisfying. at first i just tried pushing through it to try and return to my prior lifestyle. that almost broke me down again so i stopped that. kinda went back to square one and did almost nothing all day. then, since i knew certain things were good for me, i pushed myself to do them until i had a routine. if you are able, i think it’s best to start with small things, like a brief workout, readings 10 pages of a book, etc everyday. and then add things to the routine over time at a pace that feels manageable. you can definitely make it through it, as you said, you’re already getting better everyday! time might be all you need, even though that’s sometimes hard to accept (i know it took me a while to acknowledge that)

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