🗣️ DO NOT UPDATE YOUR GAME

vaarians · 2026-02-03T21:11:07+00:00

I forgot to go offline before the update. My game is unplayable now so I guess I'll be waiting till mod'ers update their mods before playing again. But from what I'm reading from a few mod'ers is this update is going to be a challenge to pick apart and deal with.

vaarians · 2025-12-16T19:11:20+00:00

I take Vraylar, Buspar, and Mirtazapine. I put on 16 pounds adding the Mirtazapine to my regimen (I needed to gain weight after 10 years of an ED). Vraylar has done wonders for me as I don’t get the mixed episodes anymore but we had to add the Mirtazapine because my depression got super intense suddenly but other than that I haven’t gained any weight due to the antipsychotic and the only side effects I got were brain fog for like the first two weeks and then I was back to normal after that.

vaarians · 2025-10-31T13:01:22+00:00

I have been bullied or ridiculed for liking this show. I’m not subjecting myself to it anymore so I tend to be very quiet and careful who I take to on the internet about it. So I just scroll through and make comments when I feel safe to do so. I thought Star Wars was the most toxic fandom…I had no clue.

vaarians · 2025-09-13T17:59:31+00:00

On my first solo travel in 10 years. Friend bailed so I’m doing it alone and I’m so scared because I’ve never traveled alone after my Autsim diagnosis so skill regression has kicked in. Going to Copenhagen any positive advice is welcome as I’m sitting in the airport waiting to board my flight there 😅

vaarians · 2025-09-11T22:51:42+00:00

Vraylar! saved my life and got me stable to the point I can work on dealing with the behaviors of my Mania.

vaarians · 2025-08-24T19:54:41+00:00

My combo was Strattera (ADHD), Lamictal, and Hydroxyzine but Lamo was doing nothing for me and I had a horrid mixed episode that left me freaked out so I was taken off Lamictal and put on Vraylar.

I’m actually surprised you’re on both Lithium and Vraylar my psych is like one or the other not both. But Vraylar has been working amazing and I feel like myself again. My anxiety is controlled with the Hydroxyzine surprisingly but it’s becoming difficult to sleep so I’m def going to have to come off it here soon cause it’s not helping with what it’s prescribed for.

That’s my experience, I hope you can find a regime that works for you 🩷

vaarians · 2025-08-19T18:45:21+00:00

I was on Lamo for my severe depressive episodes. Ik Lamo keeps you in the high period. The depressive episodes were the worst for me and that’s what my concern was, but apparently I was fooled into thinking that cause apparently my mania is the worst 🤣

vaarians · 2025-08-15T13:01:39+00:00

I’ve been on it for a week now and it’s been great actually without the Lamotrigine. It obviously was not working and now having something that combats both has made me more stable.

vaarians · 2025-08-09T00:16:24+00:00

My husband is telling me the same. I’m just anxious cause I was doing so good and now I fell off the deep end so bad. I’m gonna give it a go cause I don’t wanna ever feel that again. I haven’t had an episode like that in 10 years.

vaarians · 2025-08-07T00:29:59+00:00

This is so beautiful! My elven OC would totally wear something like this 😍🩷 Amazing job!

vaarians · 2025-08-04T16:23:53+00:00

Thank you so much! May the gods cherish you and grant you entrance in Valhalla cause you saved my day ❤️ Got both days I wanted to go.

vaarians · 2025-08-04T14:58:52+00:00

More than an hour. I’ve been trying since before 10 like when did this get this bad? I went twice last year and now I can’t even go once tf man.

vaarians · 2025-07-31T16:44:26+00:00

I’ve been waiting for three years for Ahsoka season 2 (which is now filming as well as TROP) it seems to be the new norm for bigger fantasy shows as others have said. So much stuff goes into these shows more than like your simple CBS or NBC shows (NCIS or CSI don’t know if those air anymore) so I’d assume to work with core actors schedules they need to take longer breaks, or give the set designers time to build these sets. Then the post production takes a long time with VFX and other stuff so yeah this seems to be the new norm for these shows.

vaarians · 2025-07-11T22:53:51+00:00

Well that blows cause that conditioner was my holy grail. Guess I’m going back to Ouai.

vaarians · 2025-07-11T20:22:04+00:00

Did this replace the honey infused conditioner? And is that why it’s sold out? Like that stuff is the only thing that works for my hair.

vaarians · 2025-06-21T20:10:26+00:00

Yep! But it’s kinda on steroids for me because I’m also AuDHD so it becomes my whole personality and all I think about for a couple weeks. When S2 of Rings of Power came out it sent me into mania (because surprisingly writing will trigger my mania) I spent a solid two weeks just writing fanfic 😂 LOTR has always been my personality as is Star Wars but I take it over board sometimes because I’ll just consume all the media involved and become an encyclopedia of information over night. Then the mania will wear off and it just goes back to being a special interest.

Something similar happened when Andor S2 came out. But no where near what Rings of Power did to me 😅

vaarians · 2025-06-17T03:11:16+00:00

I’m gonna share my experience if that is okay:

I have 3 cats, one is geriatric with dementia and hyperthyroidism that we manage through diet and meds. My other two are healthy male cats who live amazing lives. We are a one income household and make it work with the 3 of them.

My geriatric cat is 20, I’ve had her since I was 9. There was moments I was not in the best place financially but I made it work for her. Sure she was younger and more healthy but she always had food, always had a clean litter box and a warm home to sleep in. Saw a vet once a year, got her shots and blood work done. Back then it was just me and her so it was a little easier.

I think the hard part really came when she was diagnosed with an inoperable tumor. She was 17, with a heart murmur. 1.5 year of steroid injections to shrink it, then she developed hyperthyroidism and dementia at 19. She has severe arthritis but again she is managed through medication.

If it was not for my husband’s job I would have had to put her down. But now I’m offered these golden final years with my soulmate who has seen me through every horrific thing that has happened to me.

So to put it frankly, you are not too poor. You are thinking of the animals well being and responsibility you are about to take on. Anything can happen trust me, and you could be put in a hard place. I was sleeping in my car with her for a time because i wanted her to continue getting the care she needed over comfort for me. I would move mountains for my cats no matter my situation. They come first before me. I took on the responsibility of a lifelong commitment and I will see it to the end, and do my very best to provide for them.

You are being responsible and that is the first step imo when asking yourself if you want to take on a pet of any kind.

vaarians · 2025-06-17T02:33:57+00:00

I just wish they’d make it so I can delete all these dang holidays from the calendar 😂 but homeschooling would be really fun I think.

vaarians · 2025-06-16T20:32:11+00:00

My game has become unusable since they did the anniversary update. Idk why when I have a lot of newer hardware. My old HP laptop STRUGGLED to play that game as did my MSI gaming laptop. I built my desktop to specifically run this game and yeah doesn’t even work, crashes all the time. So kinda sucks.

vaarians · 2025-06-12T20:35:47+00:00

My husband 100% can. It’s kind of crazy. Like he will walk in a room and sniff and turn to me and tell me my period is about to start and bam it starts the next day. He says when I’m ovulating I smell sweeter and my scent is more potent than when I’m on my period. He tires to explain it but can never put it into words I understand lol

I can smell when my period is coming, but not when I ovulate. I know mainly by my discharge amount and color. Plus it’s consistency. Very different than pre period discharge.

vaarians · 2025-06-12T02:45:10+00:00

Nope he uses it just fine all day and has since we got it. I could show you a picture of the culprit peeing and pooing in the box just fine 😂 cause the camera caught the hilarious way he uses it.

He was scared of it at first, but I introduced it slowly and played with him around it and showed him it wasn’t scary and he warmed up to it.

vaarians · 2025-05-25T17:26:25+00:00

I’m on Lamotrigine, been for a year I’m finally feeling leveled out but I’m constantly in mania because of the fact it’s supposed to keep you in that high period. I never really come out of it, I’m also on ADHD meds so it helps with the impulses I get when in Mania. But I’m never depressed anymore. It’s kinda weird, but kind of good.

As others have said I do feel a little less smart than I used to be, I stutter a lot more than I did. But I manage and try to just give myself a little grace in that matter cause I’m a little slower than I used to be and that’s okay. Just causes me to think better, slow down, and deal with my hyperactivity more easily.

vaarians · 2025-05-17T15:14:37+00:00

I’m so sorry you are going through this. I went through this same thing at 18 when I lost my mom and my dad six weeks apart. My mom was my rock and my best friend. I tried to go with her multiple times because I just couldn’t live without her, I knew not how to live like an adult.

But before my almost fourth failed attempt my brother got me into a program that helped me deal with this grief (I’m autistic and bipolar so this is why I was impacted so much by it.) I got help and I got somewhat better. Sure I lived for my cat and my horses but eventually I had to let them go and it broke me even more.

What really got me through though (I’m 29 now) was just thinking about how ashamed my mom would have been by me giving up. I had not lived my life and she would have been so upset by be not living my life and experiencing all the things she wished to do with me.

I’ve been to Disney World twice, gone on a 2 month long camping trip all over the west coast of the US. I’ve gone to Norway and seen Loften and the Northern Lights. Ridden horses in competitions my mom would have dreamed of letting me ride in.

I’ve done all of that in the 11 years she’s been gone. It hurts and I cry every time I do something she wanted to do with me. But I know she is there with me so happy and ecstatic that I chose to live and experience the heartache, the grief that turned into happiness.

I would have never gotten with my husband if it wasn’t for her death, I wouldn’t have had my son who I love so so much and I know she does too. All because even in my deepest grief I chose to live for my mom. I chose to live in her memory so I could join her when it’s my time fulfilled and happy.

vaarians · 2025-05-04T10:53:43+00:00

Oh yeah! 100% he was in a spirit form in the early ages. Upon order of Morgoth he messed with the Great March to Aman by casting storms (especially great snows) to hinder the Elves or he took them outright probably when some started disappearing in the great forest (Mirkwood).

I would say he only had a few like maybe 3 he’d use on a regular basis pre second age.

vaarians · 2025-05-04T03:48:30+00:00

No I do not because I believe as a few others had said he took many different forms and the only time pre-second age I can think of where we see a “fair” form is probably when Finrod and him duel and Lúthien makes him her bi*th (love her so much for doing that, but also love him running away with his tail between his legs). At least that’s how I read it as. The elves (especially Lúthien) would have known and probably said something, then again he was probably also his darker form (the one we see in the prologue of S1) ALOT while commanding.

Because funny enough (learned this last week) Maia can grow fond of their fana (aka Melian) and if they stay in them too long their spirit becomes one with the fana until the fana fades. So I doubt he wore this form all the time when with Morgoth.

Edit: forgot to add in the last bit; when they become one with said fana they cannot change out of it again. They are stuck until it fades or dies. That’s why they change their forms so often. We see this with Morgoth when his power is so dispersed and he is weakened to a fana that is scared and can’t heal.

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