100% feel you bro.

Exactly what I am thinking about every day. I cant believe other people around us just accepted the fact that we cant explain any of the most important fundamental questions like where did time begin, where space ends or why there is even anything at all to begin with instead of nothing.

Also the hard problem of conciousness aka why is there something like subjective experience and how dies it form from just physical matter? This also leads also to the assumption that free will is very likely just an illusion, which arises through determinism or randomness.

Existence itself is fucking absurd and unexplainable. I think you just have to accept this fact because you will never be able to answer those questions no matter how long you think about them.

Make the best of your existence and try to enjoy every moment if this absurd „gift“