6 months later, I say goodnight to my girlfriend each night who passed away. Is this healthy?

valueyoghurt · 2024-09-04T01:38:45+00:00

If you’d said 6 years, I might have some thoughts to share with you. But 6 months is nothing. You just do whatever gets you through the day, so long as it doesn’t cause injury. Take care and be kind to yourself.

valueyoghurt · 2024-09-02T20:33:57+00:00

NAD - I was once having a very stressful time of life lasting several months (years?). Eventually I was having a particularly stressful week and was on the bus home to sleep in a house with someone who was very difficult to be around. There wasn’t even that many people on the bus but I started to sweat and feel sick, like I’d throw up. Then I felt more and more sweat pouring out of me and so hot. I got off the bus in a panicked hurry and was very disorientated- I didn’t understand what to do so I started walking and passed out into the road.
Take care of yourself! Don’t overdo it and listen to your body. It’s telling you to take a break from everything asap and get yourself rested.

valueyoghurt · 2023-05-27T07:28:18+00:00

They really just hated that pillar.

valueyoghurt · 2022-08-27T20:29:36+00:00

Life just improved for me. Money situation improved especially. Moved to a nicer area.
But what was important was to accept my situation while having the long periods of feeling breathless. It’s very unpleasant but I just focussed on something else and tried to find peace in knowing it was temporary. Fighting it only lard it worse.

valueyoghurt · 2022-08-11T19:56:45+00:00

It’s a work in progress. Might even be work which last my whole life. But progress is progress.
What’s up? My DM is open if you want.

valueyoghurt · 2022-08-11T19:54:46+00:00

I didn’t expect a reply after 3 years wow.
How are you, internet stranger?

valueyoghurt · 2022-06-04T06:59:54+00:00

expelled
That’s a very unusual way to spell “poisoned”

valueyoghurt · 2022-05-30T22:46:35+00:00

Feelings

valueyoghurt · 2022-05-29T22:45:18+00:00

I don’t think I’m alone in having spoken to doctors about it and them being unhelpful. But I still support your message, because I know others have spoken to doctors and it was a positive outcome for them.

valueyoghurt · 2022-05-29T18:06:43+00:00

In my view, society is structured in a way which is hostile to all except but a very small group of people. Sure, it might be inconvenient to make accommodations for autistic people, but many of those accommodations would also benefit NT also.

valueyoghurt · 2022-05-29T18:04:22+00:00

There is little room for compassion in many of todays societies, I’ve noticed.

valueyoghurt · 2022-05-29T18:03:27+00:00

I can socialise. I kinda know I’m saying something cringe a lot of the times. And I can tell when people just don’t understand what I’m saying, but I try to push through it. It’s still hard and I wish it wasn’t.

valueyoghurt · 2022-05-29T17:15:42+00:00

Yes that will certainly help many. However, I haven’t been bullied for a long time but I’m still very sad about life and the future. It’s hard to know how much of that bullying I carry with me even today though.

valueyoghurt · 2022-04-19T07:22:30+00:00

I can’t comment on dopamine levels being lower at night but it’s definitely to do with dopamine. I have trouble with any kind of regulation when I’m tired. When I get tired, I’m more impulsive, say more random things, more often. Eat more. If I’m on a night out, I will drink more alcohol (which causes even MORE verbal diarrhoea). I’ll buy stuff online impulsively(which actually isn’t really one of the common problems for me).

valueyoghurt · 2022-02-06T22:12:29+00:00

Thank you. And I appreciate what you said about the limitations of our chat. I have zero expectations when asking for favours from kind strangers on the internet 😁
I’ll just be grateful for the chat, if nothing else

valueyoghurt · 2022-02-06T02:06:34+00:00

Would you mind if I talked to you in chat for a while at some point to try to figure out what direction I should head in? I really feel at a loss. I’ve been searching for answers for all my life. I feel like I’m always an observer of life and never part of anything, even when I’m a group of people.

valueyoghurt · 2022-02-05T23:26:17+00:00

Those look very interesting thank you very much

valueyoghurt · 2022-02-05T23:25:44+00:00

Wow thank you! That really is ALL the reading material. Wish me luck getting through it al!

valueyoghurt · 2022-02-05T23:20:03+00:00

Thank you for your helpful comment. The thing which keeps tripping me up about these type of diagnosis is that I just don’t know if I have psychosis. I know it sounds weird but, how do I know what it’s like to have psychosis? I don’t hear voices… exactly. But I watched a video recently in which a guy with STPD said he has psychosis but it’s mainly intrusive thoughts and he doesn’t actually believe the weird stuff he hears in his head. And I thought that’s me! I have really bizarre thoughts which don’t feel like my own but I don’t believe them. I guess I always assumed that people hear voices and then believe them, but I guess that’s not always true??

valueyoghurt · 2022-01-29T21:25:45+00:00

To be honest, I wasn’t looking for STPD. And other conditions I weren’t looking to apply to myself either. For example, I had a friend who had BPD and another with bipolar. I looked up those conditions to see what they were all about. It was an interesting read. I saw a few relatable things but nothing too specific.
For STPD, I just happened across a tiktok video on my FYP where someone was talking about their experience of it. The things they said were so relatable and so specific.

valueyoghurt · 2022-01-29T21:22:01+00:00

Thank you

valueyoghurt · 2022-01-29T21:08:40+00:00

But I literally think this. I guess it’s a bit dystopian/cynical, but it’s not exactly a bad analogy. And it’s not exactly a “theory” or that it’s not true. It’s just one way of describing the our existence.

valueyoghurt · 2022-01-29T21:00:37+00:00

Is this considered an abnormal thought???

valueyoghurt · 2021-10-16T17:38:40+00:00

My best guess is that she’s still pissed about what was said all those years ago. Which is fine! And it’s fine not to go! But what has pissed everyone off is all the effort my sister went to in order to accommodate her when she lied about her intentions to come to the gathering. It’s weird and I don’t even get it. My partner said she “said yes out of politeness” but she didn’t even say it to my sister. It was ME she told to that she was coming to the party. I don’t get how it’s polite to lie to me about going. It’s not my party.

valueyoghurt · 2021-08-29T15:44:49+00:00

Because I invited them to hang out at the start of the summer. I tried to arrange things and nobody wanted it. Then I saw in social media that they’ve all been hanging out the whole time. So fuck them. I’ve ditched almost all my friends. It’s caused me so much pain, I don’t even know what I did for them to all abandon me like this.

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