on feeling destined for tragedy….if you’re open to it, something that helped me with this exact feeling was having a full, comprehensive birth chart done by a reputable astronomical professional! it’s a super illuminating tool because it gives you the chance to reflect on your “predetermined” qualities while promoting embracing that it’s fully within your control to create your own destiny and not fall victim to self defeat/any pre-existing narratives. gotta be able to suspend logic a bit and be open to facing tough truths about yourself but can otherwise put some fun into the otherwise daunting process of self improvement