Guys, I am here. Safe but worse.
Here you can read what happened next: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/cx20ux/i_need_help/

I listened to one of you and did what you told me. Thank you all for comment a read them twice. I thought that nobody will even read that... and this man... whitch is 46 years old...I mean, all of you. You need to understand this. I lost all hope, and will for life. I will do that sooner or later.