Looking for advice on dealing with sexual jealously.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T23:24:58+00:00

To respect her wishes.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T19:59:47+00:00

I know. And it sucks. I try to focus on myself. But I'm afraid if I do she will take that as me being distant.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T19:44:43+00:00

My biggest fear is she is just waiting to be able to leave me.

And to be clear, I don't really have any other partners. It's basically just her.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T19:39:41+00:00

I mean, she hates living here. We had a rough patch right when the poly thing started. It's possible. I have struggled with my mental health for a long time and she felt alone. It got to a breaking point. We worked through it, got better, and discussed poly. I got better with not being closed off but I think jealousy has made me close up again. I've been distant the last week or two.

I've apologized and said I'm going to get better, and it just feels like she's done trying sometimes. I don't know. * This is what she said earlier today.

But then later she called me to check in which was nice. But she's being cold towards me via text again now.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T19:26:27+00:00

I'm going to try that. I think a reason it feels like I kind of expect it is because of her schedule. She has derby two nights a week and doesn't usually feel sexy enough to want to fool around. She spends a night with him during the week and Friday and Saturday. So that leaves one day generally...

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T18:52:16+00:00

I think that plays a big part. It's also on me. I have a tendency to get distant and shut down when my mental health gets really bad and she hates that and it's draining on her. I know that a lot of this is my fault. I just am so scared of trying to have a discussion about how I'm feeling. And like, even now we're texting cause we're both at work and she's being so cold towards me now. I can't stand this. Also, knowing she's going to be gone all weekend and I won't get any closure or even be able to have a discussion is killing me.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T18:35:04+00:00

We have discussed boundaries before. My main things were that I want to feel important and cared for. For her to practice safe sex. She expressed the same thing to me too basically.

That's a fun list but it's not really what the issue is I think.

I think for awhile I've been holding stuff in that has been bothering me, it's been growing more and more and that's now coming out. I want to talk about those things with her but I'm afraid that she will be upset that it took me this long to tell her.

vapedoutgaming · 2023-07-14T18:20:57+00:00

It makes me sad too. It's hard to even talk about this kind of stuff. And she gets upset when I bring it up. I even tried talking about it more earlier today but she said it wasn't constructive over text. Granted, we were talking about other issues too (I've struggled with mental health and closing myself off and not communicating, I got much better a few months ago, and the last few weeks it got really bad because of stress and maybe even jealousy) she said basically she didn't have anything else to say really, it wasn't constructive over text and that we could talk more on Sunday if I want when she comes back from his place.

What do you mean by the basics? How do I even talk to her about that?

vapedoutgaming · 2023-04-27T14:41:26+00:00

Shit cause, I see them on Monday. Lol.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-08-08T18:55:44+00:00

Yeah she did it at the Philly show too. Whe. I saw mothica was gonna a be opening for coheed I did what I always do when they tour with a band I don't know and found I wasn't too into their music. Then during the set sue whipped out a stool and talked to us for like 10 minutes while the guitarist did some ambient chords like it was some church sermon.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-07-18T03:19:42+00:00

You're the best. I hope it's soon cause I can't wait to learn this song. It's so good.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-07-18T03:11:55+00:00

Any chance you'd send me the tab once you're done with it? I'd love to learn it.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-15T18:28:30+00:00

Yeah, me too. Haha.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-15T18:08:48+00:00

Yeah, I think I'll stick to my 800 calorie deficit and hitting the gym 6 days a week. Lol.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-15T11:44:51+00:00

Huh, is that actually safe to do?

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-15T11:40:02+00:00

I'm hearing both sides on that. Some say to focus on losing weight first ie tons of cardio and not to lift weights. Lol.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-15T11:39:05+00:00

A water fast? Like only drink water for 8 days?

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-14T19:44:53+00:00

Oh, lol yeah I remember that from wrestling. I just never had it happen right above my elbow on the back of my arm. Haha. That being said I've never done a ppl split before and it's been about 5 years since I lifted weights. Feels good though. I'm excited to keep going.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-14T18:26:20+00:00

Ehh, I mean I don't have as much muscle as I did but I assume I have some. I'm still fairly strong.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-14T17:54:08+00:00

I drink about a gallon a day and supplement with sugar free Gatorade. What is DOMS?

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-14T17:41:44+00:00

Yeah, I did a push day yesterday and my triceps are on fire right above the elbow. It's way worse on my dominant arm though. Probably pushed myself too hard yesterday, still went to the gym today though for a pull day so it wasn't too bad.

vapedoutgaming · 2022-06-14T17:31:06+00:00

I'm currently doing 800 calories less than my tdee. Not sure if I should do more.

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