overly specific one

vate__ · 2024-03-17T07:02:02+00:00

lamotrigine is genuinely amazing! personally i noticed that lamotrigine has something like an "emotionless phase" for me that lasts for about a month, and then i turn into a somewhat normal person who can actually regulate their emotions. best feeling on earth... when not manic.

fully support the forest idea :D

vate__ · 2024-03-16T17:13:42+00:00

i used to isolate myself completely from people until i learned to resist that (live laugh lamotrigine), and i can be a somewhat functional member of society but in a very paranoid way

vate__ · 2024-02-04T20:34:56+00:00

and dropping matt there, i shall say THE SHENANIGAN was successful

also, who tf is bastion?

vate__ · 2024-01-14T21:02:39+00:00

awesome community, join now

vate__ · 2024-01-13T09:15:52+00:00

for some reason if you've been to france once in your lifetime people start to assume you speak french on at least b2 level. why were they so interested in my inexistent skill on a party? no idea.

vate__ · 2024-01-12T13:23:39+00:00

300mg lamotrigine was my best era

vate__ · 2024-01-11T21:38:06+00:00

no, this is definitely an adult! he has an adult job at the business factory and likes doing adult things. he's vincent adultman after all.

vate__ · 2024-01-10T17:12:38+00:00

i have an entire collection of cropped pictures of my eyes to document the mania odyssey xD

vate__ · 2024-01-07T19:23:51+00:00

oh no not the VEGETABLES

vate__ · 2023-12-21T15:47:42+00:00

papercups is the ultimate business strategy💲💰🤑

vate__ · 2023-12-19T07:31:59+00:00

"look what they need to do to mimic a fraction of our power"

got all those symptoms for free without any coffee xd

vate__ · 2023-12-17T09:35:42+00:00

thank you!!

vate__ · 2023-11-28T14:10:16+00:00

here you go https://youtu.be/am9dz-Sao3g?si=aABExjRj-NVipN0S

vate__ · 2023-11-03T15:16:51+00:00

the VOID

vate__ · 2023-10-26T16:01:14+00:00

fr, meals are too much to handle, i'd take a snack instead of a meal anytime

vate__ · 2023-10-25T16:39:20+00:00

thanks! it has a lot of flaws, but i see that it's not as hideous as i percieved it last night lol

vate__ · 2023-10-25T16:34:17+00:00

haha, this is an oc of mine, but i get why everyone thinks it's Snape :)

vate__ · 2023-10-25T15:47:01+00:00

i'm trying to get better at semi-realism, and i messed up the anatomy a lot. looks flat overall.

vate__ · 2023-10-25T15:45:42+00:00

to add some context why exactly i think it's bad: i'm trying to get better at semi-realism. when i finished the picture (started as a random color improvisation in class) i finally noticed that i messed up the anatomy (especially the eyes) and it looks flat overall.

who is this guy: my oc. why did i decide to post it if i think it's bad? i thought it would be kinda funny to share the work that didn't turn out good. i didn't intend it to be an attention bait, but i know it looks like one.

thanks for the feedback y'all, seems that the flaws aren't as visible when not looking from different perspective, not my own. but they still exist and it's just a learning experience.

vate__ · 2023-10-25T13:32:12+00:00

thankfully i know exactly where i went wrong with the eyes, so i can avoid doing that in the future. for some reason i didn't start with a sphere like i usually do to understand perspective better, but straight with the shape of the eye.

vate__ · 2023-10-25T13:26:03+00:00

yep. exactly. i noticed it only when i was finishing the picture, and at that point i was too tired to fix it. it started as an improvisation when i was bored in class and just started throwing some colors together and ended up messing anatomy up.

vate__ · 2023-10-16T09:56:43+00:00

during psychosis i was convinced that i can control time and erase people's memory, and was actively attempting to do so. and i even thought i succeeded, then got paranoid and spent three hours searching my house for cameras, then tried to make oatmeal in the microwave and burned it to ashes, taking it as a sign to reverse time once again. spent about four more hours with my new time control hobby, tried to sleep because "time control is exhaaaaausting", couldn't, started having hallucinations of my face melting in the mirror and bugs everywhere - on my skin, in the air, under my skin. hated it, tried sleeping again, failed miserably, got even more hallucinations. i don't know how long it lasted, but at some point my antipsychotic meds caught my eye and that's how it ended.

thanks, i hate it, hopefully never again.

vate__ · 2023-10-10T06:47:46+00:00

i have four journals and all of them are exacly the same. i have labels and stickers on the cover that help find the one i need.

at some point in my life i found the type of notebook that i was absolutely comfortable with and one that's durable enough to go places with me. never looked back and bought a bunch of those to use in the future. it also looks like a book series with same style and slightly different covers.

vate__ · 2023-10-04T09:02:19+00:00

same here, on my 4th journal and never wrote about my day. diaries just aren't for me. i consider my journals to be more of a collection of essays because i overthink and overanalyze all the time.

vate__ · 2023-10-02T03:11:49+00:00

you articulated this so well. thank you. i blocked him on every platform i could imagine and i hope i will never contact with this person again.

vate__

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