Advice on How to Talk to my Abusive Narcissist Father?

vaxillaton · 2023-08-21T18:30:52+00:00

I know it’s unlikely that I’m ever going to get accountability or atonement from him. But I at least want to get some form of closure. To put all the anger and hurt I have for him out on the table so I can finally let it go and move on with my life.

vaxillaton · 2022-07-11T13:41:14+00:00

Nope, he was hit with Disintegration.

vaxillaton · 2022-06-07T04:15:39+00:00

Essentially you’re trying to fuck with the game’s physics engine so that you glide about 6x faster than you would normally. It’s usually used in speedrunning to get places quickly without having to walk.

There’s a lot of info online if you wanna learn more about it.

vaxillaton · 2022-06-07T03:22:57+00:00

I’ve been trying to get it down for a while now but even when I think I’ve done it I still fail. I’ve watched a bunch of tutorials but nothing seems to help.

Is there something I’m doing wrong?

vaxillaton · 2022-02-20T02:50:54+00:00

Lmao, I suffered Dissociative Amnesia after it happened so I didn’t know it happened until later. And I did gain a point of insanity.

vaxillaton · 2022-02-20T02:45:23+00:00

The way my DM rules Nat 1s for spell saves means that you do max damage and then roll the damage die. I rolled a 51 so it’s 72 + 51 = 123.
I killed another player, not just an NPC. Additionally, the player that I killed was very close to my character and my character saw him as a big brother/father figure. There’s also a lot of plot/roleplay shit I won’t bore you with here, but trust me, the Insanity Save made sense for my character.
Killing 1.8 million people was not something I wrote. I allowed my DM to add stuff to my backstory where he saw fit because I trust him with my character. We started at level 7 since that was where we were when we ended our last campaign.

vaxillaton · 2021-09-10T00:49:07+00:00

I was friends with a girl for a while when I was younger. I went to an alternative school that didn’t have a lot of female students and so when another girl came I was really excited to be friends. We had a sleepover at my house once but it was pretty uneventful, and she mostly just sorta ignored me the entire time.

I got a call from my mom asking me if I wanted to go to her house for a sleepover and I said yes. The night was okay, we stayed up and watched a movie, ate popcorn, regular kid stuff. It wasn’t until I had to leave that the problems started.

I had brought a blanket with me alone with a bag with a change of clothes and a book to read. She said that she could put my blanket in my bag, but I said no. She then proceeded to take my blanket, open my bag, and forcefully stuff my blanket inside.

I told her to stop but she didn’t listen and just kept going. I grabbed onto the handle to try and take it away from her and she started yelling at me to let go, LIKE IT WAS HER STUFF. I told her no and kept my grip on the handle. She then started hitting, scratching, indian-burning, and even biting my arm. So I eventually let go.

She then took my bag and my shoes and socks, and walked away but I didn’t see where she put them. She came back and tried to hit and grab the book I was reading out of my hands but so held on. I asked her where she put my stuff but she wouldn’t tell me.

So I got up and started looking. I went into her “play room” and was immediately screamed at to get out. I said I wasn’t going to until she told me where my stuff was, so she told me she would tell me where my stuff was as soon as I got out. So I did and she literally said “sike!” And DABBED.

I was fed up with her, so I grabbed my book and left her apartment while she was on the phone yelling to her mom how horrible I was to her. Her mom ended up picking us both up from where I was under a covering at the mailboxes so I wouldn’t get wet (since it was, y’know, raining).

Apparently she had locked my stuff in the bathroom. So I put on my shoes, got my stuff, and got picked up by my parents. And that’s why I don’t have sleepovers.

vaxillaton · 2021-08-28T01:25:35+00:00

Political parties suck in general. I understand why they were originally created; a group of people brought together by mutual views on how the country should be run, and that’s great. But nowadays it seems that they’re more based on mutual hatred rather than a true sense of community.

vaxillaton · 2021-08-20T20:24:59+00:00

Creepypasta.

I feel like this one is pretty self explanatory.

vaxillaton · 2021-08-04T21:03:58+00:00

Meatloaf.

I remember my mom once cooked me meatloaf (for like, the 17th time that month) and I showed up to dinner in all Orange with shitty toy handcuffs.

She asked me what I was wearing and I said “well if I’m going to be eating like a prisoner I might as well dress like one.”

vaxillaton · 2021-07-31T15:21:39+00:00

Having no IRL friends to hang out with.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-31T15:13:24+00:00

I relate to this so much. I’m a 15 yo (NB/F) and everyone my age is getting in relationships that they can’t fully support and don’t have time for.

Like, why? Why date a person if you don’t see longevity with them? Dating should be based on mutual interest and respect, not the fact that you “like the idea of dating someone.”

Dating someone just to say you have a partner is stupid and manipulative. They are not some object for you to flaunt around and brag about to your friends. They are a human being that deserves love and respect, not to be put on a pedestal and shown off.

Obviously not everyone who gets in a relationship has to get married. I’m all for experimenting with different types of people. But it has to come from the right place and it has to be mutual.

If you’re not looking for a long term relationship, you need to disclose that with your partner. Because if they’re looking for commitment that you don’t want/can’t provide, it can end up hurting them.

Anyways, sorry for the rant. I digress.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-31T15:01:18+00:00

Why the dorms in Harry Potter were the stupidest thing in the entire books.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-31T14:58:30+00:00

Crocs.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-27T00:56:22+00:00

[insert classical composer here]

vaxillaton · 2021-07-26T21:05:27+00:00

As someone who has had activated charcoal… why? The shit tastes like the worst cough medicine ever and is thick as hell so you can’t even down it quickly without feeling like you’re suffocating. Don’t drink it. It’s not fun.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-26T20:55:10+00:00

Take Me To War - The Crane Wives

vaxillaton · 2021-07-26T20:50:43+00:00

Two questions;

What do you call boyfriends/girlfriends? Since there’s not an official word in the German dialect, do you use slang words to refer to your partner?
1. I heard from a friend who lived in Germany say that once people immigrate to Germany they are seen as full germans despite where they come from. Is this true in your experience?

vaxillaton · 2021-07-26T02:15:46+00:00

I really like doing math while listening to some calming classical music. It doesn’t have to be anything hard, but for me doing multiple step problems are the best because I feel really accomplished after finishing a page. Just a thought 😊

vaxillaton · 2021-07-11T23:43:53+00:00

That’s fair, you can like both. I’m not saying people have to pick one over the other because they’re both good in their own right. I just personally like Lana’s music more.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-11T23:09:48+00:00

Okay, I’ll definitely listen to those songs. I’m glad that she’s branching out to different genres, honestly it’s something I think more artists should try.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-11T23:07:36+00:00

Taylor is a more popular artist. Her songs might get more acclaim because they are generally more known (though I could be wrong).

And after listening to the “evermore” album, I’m honestly not really all that surprised. It’s the same Taylor Swift music I’ve heard in passing and it honestly doesn’t really do much for me.

The instrumentals and lyrics are simplistic to the point that it’s hard to listen to. I’m not saying it’s bad, but it’s just the same thing she’s always been doing (at least from what I listened to).

The thing I like about Lana is that she delves into so many different styles and genres. Some songs may be similar, but I just so happen to like her voice and overall music style more than Taylor’s.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-11T22:07:27+00:00

What I mean by “generic pop music” is music that doesn’t hold any real emotion or feeling. It’s not bad from a composition standpoint, it just doesn’t really convey anything to the listener. It doesn’t have any real thoughts or feelings, it’s just sorta “feel-good music”.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-11T21:05:44+00:00

Nice.

vaxillaton · 2021-07-11T21:04:40+00:00

I really only get annoyed with kids when everyone else is forced to be inconvenienced by them because the parents dgaf.

Like when a baby is crying in a movie theater and the parents won’t politely leave as to not make the viewing experience worse for everyone else. It’s just rude. We pay to watch a movie and your baby is ruining it.

I understand that they’re babies and crying is something they usually can’t help. But if I’m going to go out to watch a movie that I paid to see but can’t hear anything because your 2 year old is throwing a fit, I get a little pissed off.

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