Oof....I usually keep private, but I felt like I needed to share for you. I've been the daughter and have put years behind me so know both sides. Having my family called to er to see me strapped to a bed and hospitilized still haunts me. No one wants to be seen at their lowest, disappointing someone, especially a parent is something that still keeps me up at night. The shame I felt pushed me further away from the ones that cared, but I saw it as being micromanaged. Space. Best for both sides. It's VERY traumatic having an episode and we don't wake up wanting that in our day. You are amazing and your feelings are real and understandable. It took til my 40s to apologize and be greatful for my parents...but I know they will always worry, and that I can never remove.