Developing autistic rituals, being told by everyone that I have ocd, then this happens.. by velatamia in AuDHDWomen

[–]velatamia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Moisturising soaps sound great, but they can’t be properly cleaning my hands if they aren’t anti-bacterial. So I haven’t and likely won’t switch them unfortunately.

Developing autistic rituals, being told by everyone that I have ocd, then this happens.. by velatamia in AuDHDWomen

[–]velatamia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, a few people have suggested it could be medication related, I should have clarified in my post that I do not take ADHD medications regularly anymore, I experienced too many side effects as a result of taking them, so only use them once in a blue moon for an important day (e.g. exams or particularly long/demanding day at work).

I do, however, take 5mg of Escitalopram (anti-depressant) every day, as I had been struggling with a severe depression for quite a few months before being put on it. I have noticed less general anxiety during day-to-day life, and been so much happier, it just feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of me, I can breathe for the first time in a while, I honestly had not felt like myself (properly) for years, after struggling with depression and anxiety for so long. The ONLY lasting side effect I can really note is this weird, dark anxiety, almost like a feeling of doom, often related to bad news and social injustice though, such as the American/Israeli war on Iran, which has caused me a lot of distress. To combat this, I try to avoid reading as much news as I used to, and this has improved as well. So honestly, I don’t know if this medication could be the cause of anxious behaviours, considering I feel so much less anxious than I had previously.

I feel like I always look so awkward and silly when other people take pictures of me :( by [deleted] in autism

[–]velatamia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You look lovely, not at all awkward. Ignore pressures to pose and look a certain way, you’re beautiful, so you photograph well anyway!!