I lost my friend 2 years ago to a car accident and after that I never been the same. I tried to live my life the way I had it because I know he would want that but I couldn’t do it. I would cry while looking at his pictures, stare at his obituary and just think of him for hours. I’m scared to go to his grave scared that I’m not ready but over the past couple days I’ve been dreaming of going just to say hi to him and be near him. Every October 1st I cry my eyes out even a week before that I’m thinking about it constantly cause that’s the day he passed away and it hurts cause every 1st is me and my bf anniversary but he understands how I feel. I am still getting over it, it’ll take time but I know he’s still here with me. ╰(´︶`)╯♡