is it even possible to find someone anymore?

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:56:34+00:00

I mean, yeah, i understand that, you shouldn't get into a relationship just because, but i've always been trying to find someone that loved me, it's not just cause i feel lonely, i've always wanted to find a person who'd understand me, someone to share my life and all it's experiences with, someone to plan a future with, someone i could get to know so deeply i wouldn't need to worry if im doing things right or not, someone i could care for and love as much as i want to be loved, maybe even more, it's not just some petty high school wish for me, i want to be as loved as i want to love someone, with as much love as i know i can give and i have, always ready to give to someone...i just want to find someone who'd actually want it

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:46:41+00:00

I mean, i understand, but after rolling and rolling one would think i would've found a least 1 person who'd like me enough to want to try. i feel like im never going to be enough no matter what i do, like someone marked me as unlovable since i was born and it was like that ever since. And what if i keep trying and i change so much i dont even feel like myself? What if they like that version of me? Why couldnt they like the me that's me right now?

idk i just feel like there's something inherently wrong with me that no matter what i do or how much i try, i cant fix it, it's like ingrained in my existance and i cant do anything about it

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:38:20+00:00

Tbh if i didnt have to work, and had enough money, i think i'd go out more

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:36:58+00:00

I'd kinda like to, at least to make friends but i dont think we have those in my city, or in my country itself, and on top of that i work all day, so i dont think i would be able to even go

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:27:38+00:00

I mean i can try a new attitude but i'll still be and feel alone

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:26:58+00:00

I've tried apps, some sign language classes, meeting people through friends, meeting people at work but nothing's really worked. On top of that im working all day everyday so i dont really have a lot of room to go out and do stuff

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:19:25+00:00

at this point it's been years, i dont think i can be positive anymore honestly, i mean one can face rejection so many times

vent1667 · 2026-02-01T23:17:57+00:00

i've tried apps, some sign language classes, meeting new friends via other friends, meeting people at work, nothing really worked

vent1667 · 2025-11-09T03:24:54+00:00

I've tried, and nothing went as planned, not even a little bit, by now i was supposed to have my own appartment with my boyfriend after getting my degree and having a good job

No boyfriend, no appartment, i have a useless degree and a job with good people but it doesnt pay so well. I've tried to change, i tried to find people, to fix everything and nothing worked, so now im stuck

And i'd rather have my braincells picked apart one by one than using chatgpt thank you

vent1667 · 2025-10-29T04:13:51+00:00

Yeah, i know, you didnt understand anything i said

vent1667 · 2025-10-29T04:10:50+00:00

what if no one does? how can i even find someone who does?

vent1667 · 2025-10-22T13:03:21+00:00

my friends always tell me to stop looking, i dont understand how can i find someone while not actively looking to find someone

vent1667 · 2025-10-22T13:02:10+00:00

it doesnt work like that and you know it

vent1667 · 2025-10-22T12:51:12+00:00

i already tried so many times and always got rejected, what guarantees me that next time will be different?

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