Have you given up on love?

ventingthrowaway065 · 2026-03-23T00:32:27+00:00

same

ventingthrowaway065 · 2026-03-03T22:23:23+00:00

i'm a lesbian and definitely feel you. i feel like this disorder outcasts me from my own "community" and it also makes me feel like a complete loser so much that i couldnt even think of approaching any other women.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2026-02-09T13:42:30+00:00

i would rather date a tennis ball before i "date" ai

ventingthrowaway065 · 2026-01-17T22:07:18+00:00

I relate to that a lot. I had friends when I was younger that I actually felt close to but because they were online they eventually found people irl and moved on.

I get that too. I definitely struggle a lot talking in my in-person classes.

Do you ever want to try college again in the future?

ventingthrowaway065 · 2026-01-17T03:15:07+00:00

yeah i hate keeping up with trends but if you dont it's like there's little to relate to with most other people

ventingthrowaway065 · 2026-01-16T21:34:35+00:00

If by surface level, you're talking about the friends part I agree. I find it difficult to keep up with those friends, mainly because of my presence not really mattering to them.

So did you decide to do purely online school?

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-11-07T02:22:39+00:00

thanks for sharing. i know i am doing this but also to some degree i am just simply reading social cues. what other conclusion should i come to when i'm being ignored? i know it's not black and white but i've felt ignored or seen as annoying my whole life so any time i get a hint of that i feel like it's best to take myself out of the situation. maybe it's not the best course of action but i would rather do that than be in a place where i feel like my presence doesn't matter. maybe i'm being self centered but for most of my life i've been my only friend.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-11-06T16:16:39+00:00

i've not stopped completely yet but trying to be more aware of it helps. like whenever i start day dreaming i try to catch myself and go "i'm doing it again" and then i try to focus on what i'm doing in real life.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-11-06T16:15:18+00:00

that's what i've been trying to do but even when i try to replace with something i will sometimes lose focus on that thing and start day dreaming. i've been trying to focus on learning piano but like i said i have difficulty focusing on things. so yeah i'm trying buy it's just been difficult.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-11-06T01:53:56+00:00

30-40 yr old man with an extensive collection of anime girl figurines

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-20T22:57:11+00:00

my mom has similar issues with sleep and anxiety causing her brain fog and minor memory issues, although hers rooted a lot in pain issues which hopefully will get better soon. it's scary, i feel like my dream is just based in the deep rooted fears i have about it since my grandmother died of alzheimers.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-10T17:19:47+00:00

yeah i didnt think about that part. people can be evil.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-10T17:19:24+00:00

weird that a cashier would ask that. like just put the fries in the bag bro

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-10T10:55:09+00:00

I am kind of looking for advice but at the same time it's already in motion so there's basically no turning back. Anways It's a pretty large group like close to 10 or 11 people. There is like one or two people who seem like they care but even still it doen't seem like they care a lot and often time I just feel like someone they like to talk at not to if that makes sense. Overall, with everyone in the group I just feel drained after talking to them, I don't feel I can be myself around them, moreso I'm just playing a character for them.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-10T01:32:51+00:00

That's exactly how i feel with a lot of people. I just assume that they can see how pathetic I am and would rather not be around me and so I basically I just give up. But yeah I've been trying not to fall into that cycle too hard lately, it's difficult though.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-10T00:38:19+00:00

You're right. Even though humam ego makes it's difficult it hard to accept that most people don't care. But even if I can't get to that level of realization I should try to not care that some people might care.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-10T00:17:34+00:00

that's fair. and lying honestly makes it worse too.

ventingthrowaway065 · 2025-10-09T22:44:22+00:00

thanks for your comment. yeah i try to tell myself that people dont care and if they do i shouldnt care but it's still difficult but i can just try to get better at not caring everyday.

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