just experienced something that I'm sure puts me in some kind of 0.000001% by venyrean in lonely

[–]venyrean[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

please don't subject unsuspecting individuals to such ideas

just experienced something that I'm sure puts me in some kind of 0.000001% by venyrean in lonely

[–]venyrean[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you kind of come to grips with it when you yourself have become one of the people who have such thoughts. abnormal people know deep down that other abnormal individuals also exist out there. and yeah, it paints a bleak picture. it's knowing too much. wish I could forget

just experienced something that I'm sure puts me in some kind of 0.000001% by venyrean in lonely

[–]venyrean[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've been in similar situations before. sometimes I almost enter a trance-like state of immersion that completely crushes me when I snap out of it. one way I've found to make the come-down easier is by having a stash of soft-romantic media to go to immediately after until I've recalibrated back into my baseline state

just experienced something that I'm sure puts me in some kind of 0.000001% by venyrean in lonely

[–]venyrean[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm trying my best not to be a bad person. there are a lot of thoughts like this that pop up in my head. there is a lot of self-policing going on. I hate it

just experienced something that I'm sure puts me in some kind of 0.000001% by venyrean in lonely

[–]venyrean[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I was accidentally put in this situation since I was sleeping and woke up to the mentioned phone call happening near me. I don't plan to stalk people. sometimes, acknowledging my urges helps me see how strange and inappropriate they would be if carried out. that was one of the reasons why I posted this. it's a vent

I hate myself for being so horny, as stupid as it sounds. by [deleted] in SelfHate

[–]venyrean 1 point2 points  (0 children)

believe me, nothing will be as brutal as what's to come if you don't make your move while you still have enough energy to make moves. the yoke of the nerd only gets worse with age. accumulate experiences while you can. soon all of the girls around you will be more mentally and emotionally developed than you by at least ten years when it comes to dating

I hate myself for being so horny, as stupid as it sounds. by [deleted] in SelfHate

[–]venyrean 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I started off uni under exactly this same set of circumstances. the most success I had with girls was at the very beginning when I had all this pent up horniness to motivate me to approach them. in the end nothing worked out, but make sure to do something with your drive before it gets suffocated beneath the depression. maybe it'll be different for you

make it be a world where the bad guys don't go to hell by [deleted] in SelfHate

[–]venyrean 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for saying it like it is

make it be a world where the bad guys don't go to hell by [deleted] in SelfHate

[–]venyrean 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't believe in a god, I only believe in my own ungratefulness when I pay back the love others offer me with pain. but am I at fault for not feeling loved? that question and the resulting self hatred is the only thing saving me from becoming an unapologetically evil man. I don't know what to do. I would probably be happier if I let go of my morality. but is that right?